Charles grimaced gallantly but derisively. He was leaning one elbow on
the table, and now he caught the flesh above his nose and pinched it
with his thumb and forefinger as if to still a hurt. "Yes," he agreed
with light absence. "By Jove, I know it! Every time I see poor old Jack
Wilson it reminds me of how capable she is."
Catherine agreed to be amused, though her mouth was severe. "Ridicule
is an easy way out of difficulty, Charles."
"Difficulty? Is it? Damn me, I wish it was!" He pushed his plate aside
and pressed the fingers of both hands against his lowered brow.
Catherine, determinedly complacent, tapped her foot under the table and
ate daintily. The nervous frown reasserted itself and she smoothed it
away with an effort.
Charles lifted his head, as with a sudden sweetly-depressing resolution.
"So you're going away. When?"
Catherine was diligently attentive to her food. "Perhaps I may not be
able to go. I have so many important things--" She hesitated.
Charles rose, as if imperatively desirous of physical expression. He
halted a moment by the table. Catherine had no name for his saccharine
melancholy, but she detested it. "I haven't been such a hell of a
husband, have I, Kate?" Ridiculous, she thought. She saw his mouth
twitch. She was afraid. He touched her hair and she bore it. "Things
might have been worse for you, Kate."
She sensed in his pity for her a phase of the pity for himself which
supplied the excuse for all his shortcomings. "You'll muss my hair,
Charles. I think life has treated me very well indeed--both of us, I
should say."
"We men are a rough lot, but we mean well. Time for me to get down to
the dirty world of commerce." His hand dropped away from her. He took
out his watch.
White feet--he was tired.
Catherine did not glance up as he went out. She was hostile toward his
disappearing back that was invisible to her. She laid her knife and fork
very precisely on her plate. When she spoke to the servant who came to
clear away the dishes, her manner, though kind, was peculiarly severe.
* * * * *
Charles had long ago definitely decided, though on no more than
circumstantial evidence, that Julia had no life with her husband, and
now he wanted her to the point of divorcing Catherine. Of course he had
as yet said nothing decisive to either Julia or his wife. Until he was
prepared to act it seemed to him unnecessary to speak.
It was night. He was in his room alone. Without removing his clothes he
threw himself on the bed, soiling the handsome counterpane with his
polished shoes. Mentally he reviewed the histories of those of his
friends who had taken some such steps as he was contemplating. The more
he thought about the domestic upheavals which he had noted from a safe
distance, the more it was borne in upon him that, no matter how great
his desire to avoid causing suffering, the moment he began to act
positively, suffering for others would result from anything that he did.
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