Narrative and Miscellaneous PapersDe Quincey, Thomas
General
Narrative and Miscellaneous Papers
De Quincey, Thomas
English essays; English fiction
And she reached them; staggering, fainting, reeling, she entered beneath
the canopy of umbrageous trees. But, as oftentimes, the Hebrew fugitive
to a city of refuge, flying for his life before the avenger of blood,
was pressed so hotly that, on entering the archway of what seemed to
_him_ the heavenly city-gate, as he kneeled in deep thankfulness to kiss
its holy merciful shadow, he could not rise again, but sank instantly
with infant weakness into sleep--sometimes to wake no more; so sank, so
collapsed upon the ground, without power to choose her couch, and with
little prospect of ever rising again to her feet, the martial nun. She
lay as luck had ordered it, with her head screened by the undergrowth
of bushes, from any gales that might arise; she lay exactly as she sank,
with her eyes up to heaven; and thus it was that the nun saw, before
falling asleep, the two sights that upon earth are fittest for the
closing eyes of a nun, whether destined to open again, or to close for
ever. She saw the interlacing of boughs overhead forming a dome, that
seemed like the dome of a cathedral. She saw through the fretwork of the
foliage, another dome, far beyond, the dome of an evening sky, the dome
of some heavenly cathedral, not built with hands. She saw upon this
upper dome the vesper lights, all alive with pathetic grandeur of
coloring from a sunset that had just been rolling down like a chorus.
She had not, till now, consciously observed the time of day; whether it
were morning, or whether it were afternoon, in her confusion she had not
distinctly known. But now she whispered to herself--'_It is evening_:'
and what lurked half unconsciously in these words might be--'The sun,
that rejoices, has finished his daily toil; man, that labors, has
finished _his_; I, that suffer, have finished mine.' That might be what
she thought, but what she _said_ was--'It is evening; and the hour is
come when the _Angelus_ is sounding through St. Sebastian.' What made
her think of St. Sebastian, so far away in depths of space and time? Her
brain was wandering, now that her feet were _not_; and, because her eyes
had descended from the heavenly to the earthly dome, _that_ made
her think of earthly cathedrals, and of cathedral choirs, and of St.
Sebastian's chapel, with its silvery bells that carried the _Angelus_
far into mountain recesses. Perhaps, as her wanderings increased, she
thought herself back in childhood; became 'pussy' once again; fancied
that all since then was a frightful dream; that she was not upon the
dreadful Andes, but still kneeling in the holy chapel at vespers; still
innocent as then; loved as then she had been loved; and that all men
were liars, who said her hand was ever stained with blood. Little enough
is mentioned of the delusions which possessed her; but that little gives
a key to the impulse which her palpitating heart obeyed, and which her
rambling brain for ever reproduced in multiplying mirrors. Restlessness
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account