Narrative and Miscellaneous PapersDe Quincey, Thomas
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Narrative and Miscellaneous Papers
De Quincey, Thomas
English essays; English fiction
These unseasonable dozings exposed him to another danger. He fell
repeatedly, whilst reading, with his head into the candles; a cotton
night-cap which he wore was instantly in a blaze, and flaming about his
head. Whenever this happened, Kant behaved with great presence of mind.
Disregarding the pain, he seized the blazing cap, drew it from his head,
laid it quietly on the floor, and trod out the flames with his feet.
Yet, as this last act brought his dressing-gown into a dangerous
neighborhood to the flames, I changed the form of his cap, persuaded him
to arrange the candles differently, and had a decanter of water placed
constantly by his side; and in this way I applied a remedy to a danger,
which would else probably have been fatal to him.
From the sallies of impatience, which I have described in the case
of the coffee, there was reason to fear that, with the increasing
infirmities of Kant, would grow up a general waywardness and obstinacy
of temper. For my own sake, therefore, and not less for his, I now laid
down one rule for my future conduct in his house; which was, that I
would, on no occasion, allow my reverence for him to interfere with the
firmest expression of my opinion on subjects relating to his own health;
and in cases of great importance, that I would make no compromise with
his particular humors, but insist, not only on my view of the case, but
also on the practical adoption of my views; or, if this were refused me,
that I would take my departure at once, and not be made responsible
for the comfort of a person whom I had no power to influence. And this
behavior on my part it was that won Kant's confidence; for there was
nothing which disgusted him so much as any approach to fawning or
sycophancy. As his imbecility increased, he became daily more liable
to mental delusions; and, in particular, he fell into many fantastic
notions about the conduct of his servants, and, in consequence, into a
peevish mode of treating them. Upon these occasions I generally observed
a deep silence. But sometimes he would ask me for my opinion; and
when this happened, I did not scruple to say, 'Ingenuously, then, Mr.
Professor, I think that you are in the wrong.'--'You think so?' he would
reply calmly, at the same time asking for my reasons, which he would
listen to with great patience, and openness to conviction. Indeed,
it was evident that the firmest opposition, so long as it rested upon
assignable grounds and principles, won upon his regard; whilst his own
nobleness of character still moved him to habitual contempt for timorous
and partial acquiescence in his opinions, even when his infirmities made
him most anxious for such acquiescence.
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