Narrative and Miscellaneous PapersDe Quincey, Thomas
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Narrative and Miscellaneous Papers
De Quincey, Thomas
English essays; English fiction
The summer of 1803 was now come, and, visiting Kant one day, I was
thunderstruck to hear him direct me, in the most serious tone, to
provide the funds necessary for an extensive foreign tour. I made
no opposition, but asked his reasons for such a plan; he alleged
the miserable sensations he had in his stomach, which were no longer
endurable. Knowing what power over Kant a quotation from a Roman poet
had always had, I simply replied--'Post equitem sedet atra cura,'
and for the present he said no more. But the touching and pathetic
earnestness with which he was continually ejaculating prayers for warmer
weather, made it doubtful to me whether his wishes on this point ought
not, partially at least, to be gratified; and I therefore proposed to
him a little excursion to the cottage we had visited the year before.
'Anywhere,' said he, 'no matter whither, provided it be far enough.'
Towards the latter end of June, therefore, we executed this scheme;
on getting into the carriage, the order of the day with Kant was,
'Distance, distance. Only let us go far enough,' said he: but scarcely
had we reached the city-gates before the journey seemed already to have
lasted too long. On reaching the cottage we found coffee waiting for
us; but he would scarcely allow himself time for drinking it, before
he ordered the carriage to the door; and the journey back seemed
insupportably long to him, though it was performed in something less
than twenty minutes. 'Is this never to have an end?' was his continual
exclamation; and great was his joy when he found himself once more in
his study, undressed, and in bed. And for this night he slept in peace,
and once again was liberated from the persecution of dreams.
Soon after he began again to talk of journeys, of travels in remote
countries, &c., and, in consequence, we repeated our former excursion
several times; and though the circumstances were pretty nearly the same
on every occasion, and always terminating in disappointment as to the
immediate pleasure anticipated, yet, undoubtedly, they were, on the
whole, salutary to his spirits. In particular, the cottage itself,
standing under the shelter of tall alders, with a valley stretched
beneath it, through which a little brook meandered, broken by a
water-fall, whose pealing sound dwelt pleasantly on the ear, sometimes,
on a quiet sunny day, gave a lively delight to Kant: and once, under
accidental circumstances of summer clouds and sun-lights, the little
pastoral landscape suddenly awakened a lively remembrance which had been
long laid asleep, of a heavenly summer morning in youth, which he had
passed in a bower upon the banks of a rivulet that ran through the
grounds of a dear and early friend, Gen. Von Lossow. The strength of
the impression was such, that he seemed actually to be living over that
morning again, thinking as he then thought, and conversing with those
that were no more.
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