Narrative and Miscellaneous PapersDe Quincey, Thomas
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Narrative and Miscellaneous Papers
De Quincey, Thomas
English essays; English fiction
During the last fortnight of Kant's life, he busied himself unceasingly
in a way that seemed not merely purposeless but self-contradictory.
Twenty times in a minute he would unloose and tie his neck
handkerchief--so also with a sort of belt which he wore about his
dressing-gown, the moment it was clasped, he unclasped it with
impatience, and was then equally impatient to have it clasped again.
But no description can convey an adequate impression of the weary
restlessness with which from morning to night he pursued these labors of
Sisyphus--doing and undoing--fretting that he could not do it, fretting
that he had done it.
By this time he seldom knew any of us who were about him, but took us
all for strangers. This happened first with his sister, then with me,
and finally with his servant. Such an alienation distressed me more than
any other instance of his decay: though I knew that he had not really
withdrawn his affection from me, yet his air and mode of addressing me
gave me constantly that feeling. So much the more affecting was it, when
the sanity of his perceptions and his remembrances returned; but these
intervals were of slower and slower occurrence. In this condition,
silent or babbling childishly, self-involved and torpidly abstracted, or
else busy with self-created phantoms and delusions, what a contrast did
he offer to _that_ Kant who had once been the brilliant centre of
the most brilliant circles for rank, wit, or knowledge, that Prussia
afforded! A distinguished person from Berlin, who had called upon him
during the preceding summer, was greatly shocked at his appearance, and
said, 'This is not Kant that I have seen, but the shell of Kant!' How
much more would he have said this, if he had seen him now!
Now came February, 1804, which was the last month that Kant was destined
to see. It is remarkable that, in the memorandum book which I have
before mentioned, I found a fragment of an old song, (inserted by Kant,
and dated in the summer about six months before the time of his death,)
which expressed that February was the month in which people had the
least weight to carry, for the obvious reason that it was shorter by two
and by three days than the others; and the concluding sentiment was in
a tone of fanciful pathos to this effect--'Oh, happy February! in which
man has least to bear--least pain, least sorrow, least self-reproach!'
Even of this short month, however, Kant had not twelve entire days to
bear; for it was on the 12th that he died; and in fact he may be said to
have been dying from the 1st. He now barely vegetated; though there were
still transitory gleams flashing by fits from the embers of his ancient
intellect.
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