Narrative of a Private Soldier in His Majesty's 92d Regiment of FootBillany, George
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Narrative of a Private Soldier in His Majesty's 92d Regiment of Foot
Billany, George
Great Britain -- History, Military -- 1789-1820; Soldiers -- Biography; Soldiers -- Religious life
as they saw all our movements, and perceived that we were considerably
advanced before the army, they formed the resolution to attack us with
all their force; and accordingly marched to their right down the height,
and, when on the plain, formed line, and came forward. When we perceived
their movement, we halted, formed five companies in line; posted the
other five in the rear of scattered bushes on the left towards the lake,
and awaited their approach. We cannonaded them with our two pieces, but
our ammunition being soon expended, the guns were drawn into the rear.
During the time that we were advancing, I had frequently and earnestly
prayed to God, to spare and protect me. Our present situation was one of
imminent danger; part of the enemy's artillery were playing upon us from
the rising ground towards the right; and in front, the enemy, with the
rest of his artillery, was advancing in great force, in a line formed
like the blade of a scythe, the curved point to our left on the shore of
the lake, and that part of it appeared to be composed of cavalry.[9] It
seemed to be the enemy's intention to come round our left, and get into
our rear with that part of their line, while the rest of it attacked us
in front, and out-flanked us on the right, by which they would have
completely surrounded us, and either destroyed or carried us prisoners,
before the main body of the army could arrive to assist us. This was
their only object. They were too weak to attack the army on level ground
with any hope of success; but they were more than competent to take or
destroy our party, which did not amount to 500 men. I was near the left
of the line, and beheld the advance of the enemy with an anxious mind;
but as we were standing in a fixed position, I had some leisure for
reflection; and as death was once more staring me in the face, I began
to inquire "what hope have I for eternity, if I am cut off at this
time?" I confessed my sins in the words of the 51st Psalm; and besought
God to pardon them, and give me a new heart; I then thought, "If we are
mostly cut down at this time, and have to appear before God, will he
make no difference between me and those around me, many of whom, in
place of calling upon him, profane his name?" I then endeavoured to lay
hold on the mercies promised to the penitent and contrite in heart. I
thought I was sorry for my sins, and confessed them without guile, and
on this account I endeavoured to hope for mercy, thus resting partly on
the difference that I conceived to be between my own character and that
of others, and partly on my contrition and repentance before God. But my
mind was still dissatisfied; I still feared the worst; I knew not the
merits of a Saviour's righteousness; my hope was not built upon him but
on myself, and could not be satisfactory. I therefore cried to God to
spare me once more, and promised that my future life should be devoted
to his service. The Lord was pleased to hear my cry, and to protect me
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