Narrative of a Private Soldier in His Majesty's 92d Regiment of FootBillany, George
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Narrative of a Private Soldier in His Majesty's 92d Regiment of Foot
Billany, George
Great Britain -- History, Military -- 1789-1820; Soldiers -- Biography; Soldiers -- Religious life
As he lay nearly opposite to me, I
saw the face of the stump when it was dressed. The skin never united; at
the second or third dressing the flesh of the thigh was detached from
the bone; so much so, that there was a large cavity underneath the bone,
which made it visible almost to the joint. He died before next day,
being about ten or twelve days from the time, he appeared with his leg
sore. At my left hand lay a young man, a sailor belonging to the
Northumberland 74, with a large ulcer in the under side of his right
arm, a little below the arm pit. I formed an attachment to this young
man; took a note of his own and his mother's name, and place of
residence, and of the time when his wages became due; and promised, if I
got safe to England, to inform them of these particulars, and of the
time and circumstances of his death, for he was sensible that death was
near. But there is one thing that gives me no small pain, when I reflect
upon it, to this day; that, although I saw he was dying, I was not able,
with all the religion I thought I had, to point my dying comrade to the
Saviour. Not having found a Saviour to my own soul, whatever I might say
about religion or religious subjects, a Saviour, properly so called, was
no part of my system. I who never beheld Jesus, as the Lamb of God which
taketh away the sin of the world, could not point him out, in that
soul-reviving character, to others; neither did there appear to be in
this house of death, any one that could point his dying comrades to a
Saviour, nor any among the dying throng, that were asking after a
Saviour. Whatever emotions might be passing through the minds of any,
the question as to what became of the soul after death, the hope of
heaven, or the fear of hell, the way to attain the one and escape the
other, never became a subject of conversation; and yet if ever
circumstances, (short of those of criminals condemned to die, without
any hope of mercy, upon a particular day,) could have forced such
conversation upon a company of sinful mortals, it must have been the
circumstances we were in. But every one seemed to indulge the hope of
life, until the cold hand of death was already on his heart, and left
him little time to think of that world to which he was going, and less
ability to communicate his thoughts to others, or to ask, or to receive
information. And this was the case, not in this hospital only, but in
all the hospitals I was in, both before and afterwards. I did indeed say
a few words to my dying comrade, about praying for mercy to his soul,
and made use of the name of Jesus in a formal way; and he continued for
several days before his death, to pray very earnestly to God for mercy,
and made use of that name: but whether he understood the character of
Jesus as a Saviour, and was led to place his dependence upon his merits,
is more than I can tell. It may be, that the Spirit of Christ, in his
sovereign grace, gave him a saving knowledge of that name that was used
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