Neæra: A Tale of Ancient RomeGraham, John W. (John William), active 1886-1887
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Neæra: A Tale of Ancient Rome
Graham, John W. (John William), active 1886-1887
Rome -- History -- Empire, 30 B.C.-476 A.D. -- Fiction
The wine and the fresh morning air restored him vastly, but his condition
was yet pitiable. He sought a warm sunny corner of a wall and sat down,
but could not rest. Cramped by his narrow room, he had remained motionless
the past night, till the acute suffering of his apprehension had produced
a merciful species of drowsiness. But now, under the open heavens, and
with ample space on every side, the functions of his mind resumed such
activity, as to develop a painful nervous disorder which impelled him
ceaselessly hither and thither. A wider field for reflection might have
brought him relief, but that was denied him. He knew only, that one whom
he loved better than his own life was in worse danger than that of death.
On this dread fact he brooded in passive agony. Like an orb of torment it
pierced him with its searing flame amid encasing blackness, through which
his mind struggled in vain to escape for relief. It scorched into his
brain; and round and round, hither and thither, without rest, his feet
wandered within the girdle of the infernal walls which imprisoned him. His
was the soul of the true artist—keenly sensitive, deeply emotional—all the
worse for him.
The hours passed on. Would Caesar’s commands never come to end his
terrible suspense?
The vast palace, gleaming in the sun, seemed to mock him as he watched its
silent entrances with feverish glances. He knew not but what his home had
already been invaded. Knew! No, he knew nothing, save that he was
helpless.
More than once, despair urged him to force his way into the presence of
the tyrant himself and demand his freedom, or to boldly pass the outer
gate and gain the fishermen’s boats. But the madness of such an act was
evident even to his own wild thoughts. At every outlet a guard was lolling
lazily on his spear, his gilded panoply shining in the sun. One shadowy
hope there was, that Cestus might have persuaded Neæra to proceed to Rome.
But that was hoping against hope: the unhappy potter knew in his heart she
would never consent. No—there she would remain until he returned, and
there she would be the prey of the spoiler.
The big drops stood on his pale forehead as the agony of his mind tore
him. His overloaded brain seemed to rock with a vague, hideous burden.
Suddenly the sunlight brightened, as it were, into a fierce white glare.
The vast fabric of the palace, with each neighbouring object, seemed to
heave up round him with a motion which filled him with a deadly sickness,
and caused him to spread out his arms, as if the surging masses were about
to be launched upon him.
Out of the sky gigantic shapes whirled and swooped upon him; but when, as
it seemed, they were on the point of crushing him, they dwindled and fled
as suddenly away. His very brain seemed to contract and distend as rapidly
in the same awful proportions. It was terrific—he strove to shout aloud in
his terror, but his voice died within him, and his limbs were immovable.
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