"Hesitate! When it means that. No, no—impossible! You are only playing
with my fears. And caring for Fulvia as you do! It is not as if she
were nothing to you; she—the most unselfish, the noblest—Yes, I know
you had another fancy once. But what of that? Everybody has a boyish
fancy first, which has to be given up. And that could not be; it never
could have been! He would not have consented; and now he is gone, how
could I? Oh no! I have always had objections—strong objections. But we
need not talk of that now. We have only to think of our dear Fulvia—my
child already! I don't know if you will like me to say it, but there
cannot be much doubt, if you speak, what Fulvia's answer will be. She
has shown at times so plainly—not meaning it, of course—has shown what
she feels. If you could have seen her, as I have, always on the watch
for you, always thinking of your comfort—her happiness depending on
your very look. It is not a thing that one can be mistaken about!"
"Mother, you are saying all this to me!—And if I should not ask her?"
Nigel said in a low tone.
It was his nearest approach to a rebuke with Mrs. Browning. He would
not have heard the words from any one else.
"You will ask her! I know you will. I have not a doubt. Think, if
you did not; think of the misery, the terrible misery to us all—your
father's dear name dragged in the mire—trampled upon. The very thought
half kills me!" And indeed a ghastly look came into her face. "I could
not bear it! I could never endure it! Promise, oh, promise me, for his
sake, my Nigel—promise to shelter him—all of us! Only promise!" she
implored.
CHAPTER XXIII
A STRANGE INTERVIEW
"When we two parted
In silence and tears."—BYRON.
WHEN Ethel left Tom, she really was angry with him. Such rudeness to
speak of her "caring too much" for anybody! What business was it of
Tom's whom she liked or did not like? And to call Nigel "that fellow"!
Perhaps this little insult to Nigel rankled the most.
Ethel's anger was never bitter in kind, or long lasting, and annoyance
soon gave way to amusement. Poor old Tom! After all, he had not meant
any harm; and he did not know Nigel; but how Tom could ever have
thought such a thing possible was the marvel. Leave all she loved in
England, and go to Australia with only Tom and Tom's herbaria!
"Oh, never!" said Ethel to herself. She repeated the word
energetically, half aloud, as she passed through the square—"Never!"
and a passerby turned to look at her, smiling. Ethel did not see; she
went quickly, without any particular aim, towards the river.
It was a tempting afternoon for a stroll, balmy and soft—one of those
mild grey days, with occasional gleams of sunshine, which do sometimes
intrude themselves into an English winter. They are not exactly
invigorating days, and enthusiastic skaters are wont to abuse them; but
to haters of cold they come as a cheery foretaste of spring.
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