If aught else be lacking between brother and sister, between friend and
friend, between husband and wife, while there is perfect trust, there
cannot be misery. It is hardly possible that perfect trust should exist
without growing love; but trust must stand upon a firm foundation;
it can only exist where such a foundation is found. He who trusts
must know from practical experience that the one whom he trusts is
trustworthy. And whatever else is present, if trust fails everything
fails; there is then no firm ground to stand upon; love sinks at once
to a lower level.
Fulvia's own hand had cut away this firm ground from beneath her feet.
In the main she was, as Nigel had always counted her, truthful and
honourable; but one failure long persisted in had undone what went
before. She might indeed never so fail again; but how could Nigel know?
Where one cannot trust, there can be no security of happiness. He might
be kind to any extent, but how could he rest upon her word?
"If only I had not done it! If one could but undo the past! And it did
me no good. Things would have come about just the same! . . . If I had
destroyed the paper! But would that have been enough? It might have
been known some day; or I might have felt that I must tell! If only I
had not done it!"
Round and round the circle of regrets she travelled; and when at length
a sound aroused her, she was startled to find how quickly the afternoon
was passing.
Unless she made haste, Nigel might reach home before her. That would
never do! And what if he and Malcolm should at any moment row by,
detecting her on the bank? Fulvia had liked to follow in his steps; but
she did not wish to meet him, since he had not asked her to do so.
There was indeed no time to lose, if she would avoid the possibility,
still more if she would ensure being the first to arrive at home.
Fulvia sprang up, somewhat carelessly in her haste, and found the
ground giving way beneath.
Late spring frosts had loosened the soil, heavy rains since had
carried on the work of disintegration, and Fulvia's weight bestowed
the finishing touch. A complete landslip on a tiny scale seemed to be
taking place. She struggled round to a kneeling position, and strove to
find her feet; but in vain. The earth was sliding, and she was sliding
with it.
Fulvia resisted fiercely, clutching at grass, weeds, rotten roots,
anything within reach; but everything in turn failed. Screaming was not
her natural mode of expression, unless under a very severe shock, and
she kept her self-command, making no outcry, though keenly aware of her
predicament. The steep bank ended abruptly in a natural upright wall
of clay, the stiff clay being surmounted by a layer of more friable
earth—that which was now yielding. Close underneath flowed the stream,
shelving at once into deep water, deeper now than usual from spring
rains.
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