Great Britain -- History -- George V, 1910-1936 -- Fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- Fiction
And at the thought of the man as he was alive and of him now, dead, an
immense blackness descended all over Tietjens. He said to himself: _I am
very tired_. Yet he was not ashamed. . . . It was the blackness that
descends on you when you think of your dead. . . . It comes, at any
time, over the brightness of sunlight, in the grey of evening, in the
grey of the dawn, at mess, on parade; it comes at the thought of one man
or at the thought of half a battalion that you have seen, stretched out,
under sheeting, the noses making little pimples: or not stretched out,
lying face downwards, half buried. Or at the thought of dead that you
have never seen dead at all. . . . Suddenly the light goes out. . . . In
this case it was because of one fellow, a dirty enough man, not even
very willing, not in the least endearing, certainly contemplating
desertion. . . . But your dead . . . _Yours_ . . . Your own. As if
joined to your own identity by a black cord. . . .
In the darkness outside, the brushing, swift, rhythmic pacing of an
immense number of men went past, as if they had been phantoms. A great
number of men in fours, carried forward, irresistibly, by the
overwhelming will of mankind in ruled motion. The sides of the hut were
so thin that it was peopled by an innumerable throng. A sodden voice,
just at Tietjens' head, chuckled: "For God's sake, sergeant-major, stop
these ----. I'm too ---- drunk to halt them. . . ."
It made for the moment no impression on Tietjens' conscious mind. Men
were going past. Cries went up in the camp. Not orders, the men were
still marching. Cries.
Tietjens' lips--his mind was still with the dead--said:
"That obscene Pitkins! . . . I'll have him cashiered for this. . . ." He
saw an obscene subaltern, small, with one eyelid that drooped.
He came awake at that. Pitkins was the subaltern he had detailed to
march the draft to the station and go on to Bailleul under a boozy field
officer of sorts.
McKechnie said from the other bed:
"That's the draft back."
Tietjens said:
"Good God! . . ."
McKechnie said to the batman:
"For God's sake go and see if it is. Come back at once. . . ."
The intolerable vision of the line, starving beneath the moon, of grey
crowds murderously elbowing back a thin crowd in brown, zigzagged across
the bronze light in the hut. The intolerable depression that, in those
days, we felt--that all those millions were the playthings of ants busy
in the miles of corridors beneath the domes and spires that rise up over
the central heart of our comity, that intolerable weight upon the brain
and the limbs, descended once more on those two men lying upon their
elbows. As they listened their jaws fell open. The long, polyphonic
babble, rushing in from an extended line of men stood easy, alone
rewarded their ears.
Tietjens said:
"That fellow won't come back. . . . He can never do an errand and come
back. . . ." He thrust one of his legs cumbrously out of the top of his
flea-bag. He said:
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