Great Britain -- History -- George V, 1910-1936 -- Fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- Fiction
She was by that time tired of men . . . or she imagined that she was;
for she was not prepared to be certain, considering the muckers she saw
women coming all round her over the most unpresentable individuals. Men,
at any rate, never fulfilled expectations. They might, upon
acquaintance, turn out more entertaining than they appeared; but almost
always taking up with a man was like reading a book you had read when
you had forgotten that you had read it. You had not been for ten minutes
in any sort of intimacy with any man before you said: "But I've read all
this before. . . ." You knew the opening, you were already bored by the
middle, and, especially, you knew the end. . . .
She remembered, years ago, trying to shock her mother's spiritual
adviser, Father Consett, whom they had lately murdered in Ireland, along
with Casement. . . . The poor saint had not in the least been shocked.
He had gone her one better. For when she had said something like that
her idea of a divvy life--they used in those days to say divvy--would be
to go off with a different man every week-end, he had told her that
after a short time she would be bored already by the time the poor dear
fellow was buying the railway tickets. . . .
And, by heavens, he had been right. . . . For when she came to think of
it, from the day that poor saint had said that thing in her mother's
sitting-room in the little German spa--Lobscheid, it must have been
called--in the candle-light, his shadow denouncing her from all over the
walls, to now when she sat in the palmish wickerwork of that hotel that
had been new-whitely decorated to celebrate hostilities, never once had
she sat in a train with a man who had any right to look upon himself as
justified in mauling her about. . . . She wondered if, from where he sat
in heaven, Father Consett would be satisfied with her as he looked down
into that lounge. . . . Perhaps it was really he that had pulled off
that change in her. . . .
Never once till yesterday. . . . For perhaps the unfortunate Perowne
might just faintly have had the right yesterday to make himself for
about two minutes--before she froze him into a choking, pallid snowman
with goggle eyes--the perfectly loathsome thing that a man in a railway
train becomes. . . . Much too bold and yet stupidly awkward with the
fear of the guard looking in at the window, the train doing over sixty,
without corridors. . . . No, never again for _me_, father, she addressed
her voice towards the ceiling. . . .
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