It wasn't as if she had really cared for the man--it was worse. It
was the sum of all the blows her poor, struggling pride had suffered
in the course of the last twenty-four hours, beginning with her
awakening to the worthlessness of Lyttleton and realisation of the low
esteem in which he held her, and culminating in this facer from one
whose love she had refused but none the less prized for the
comfort it gave her.
Nor was this all. In addition to the writhings of an exacerbated
vanity, she was conscious of a sense of personal loss, as if a
landmark had been razed in the perspective of her life. In spite of
those faults and shortcomings, so unduly emphasised through the man's
own deliberate intent and so inexcusable in one who appreciated so
well what was expected of a man in his position, Sally had
subconsciously from the very first felt Trego to be one whose faith
and loyalty were as a rock, whose friendship might be counted upon as
an enduring tower of refuge.
And to have him go from her, protesting passionate patience, leaving
her exalted with the consciousness that she was wanted--to have him go
thus from her and straightway fall into the trap which Mrs. Artemas
unaffectedly baited--the trap of which he had not once but many times
obliquely alluded to in half-humorous, half-genuine terms of fear--it
was, or seemed to be, intolerable.
The waves of burning emotion that swept and scorched her were
alternately of rage and chagrin.
Granted the opportunity, she could easily conceive herself as dealing
very vigorously with the mantrap.
Some one rattled the knob of her door. Startled, Sally jumped up, and
with her wadded handkerchief dabbed hastily and superfluously at
her eyes, which were quite dry as yet.
She did not answer, but eyed apprehensively the dark recess in which
the door was set at the end of her unlighted room.
A knock followed the noise of the knob. Still she hesitated to reply.
Uncertainly she moved toward the nearest wall-sconce and lifted her
hand to the switch. She was sadly confused and unstrung, her thoughts
awhirl and nerves ajangle. The last thing she wished just then was to
meet and talk to anybody.
Still it might be Mrs. Gosnold or her messenger. And that lady was
Sally's one remaining friend on earth. She swallowed hard, took
herself firmly in hand, and when the knock was repeated was able to
answer in a tolerably even voice:
"Well? Who is it?"
"Miss Manwaring, are you there?" Heartfelt relief informed the voice
of Mrs. Standish. "Please let me in. I must speak with you
immediately."
Sullenly, without replying, Sally turned on the light, moved to the
door, unlocked and opened it.
"Come in," she said ungraciously.
Mrs. Standish swept in, gay crimson domino over fluffy skirts and
slim, pink legs assorting oddly with the agitation betrayed by her
unsmiling eyes, her pallor accentuating the rouge on her cheeks
like rose-petals against snow.
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