"Exactly," he said. "That's it, no doubt. It's given him a center--a hub
for the wheel."
"Eh?"
"It's ... it's joined everything on to one point in him. He'll be more
obstinate and mad than ever before. He's got a center now.... I suppose
that's what religion's for," he added meditatively.
This was Greek to Jack. He looked at Dick uncomprehendingly.
Dick turned round and began to stare into the fire, still contracting
and expanding his fingers.
"It's a funny thing--this religion," he said at last. "I never could
understand it."
"And what about Archie?" asked Jack with sudden abruptness. (He had no
continuity of mind.)
Dick brought his meditations to a close with equal abruptness, or
perhaps he would not have been so caustic as regards his first cousin.
"Oh, Archie's an ass!" he said. "We can leave him out."
Jack changed the subject again. He was feeling the situation very
acutely indeed, and the result was that all its elements came tumbling
out anyhow.
"I've been beastly uncomfortable," he said.
"Yes?" said Dick. "Any particular way?"
Jack shifted one leg over the other. He had not approached one element
in the situation at all, as yet, with Dick, but it had been simmering in
him for weeks, and had been brought to a point by Frank's letter
received this morning. And now the curious intimacy into which he had
been brought with Dick began to warm it out of him.
"You'll think me an ass, too, I expect," he said. "And I rather think
it's true. But I can't help it."
Dick smiled at him encouragingly. (Certainly, thought Jack, this man was
nicer than he had thought him.)
"Well, it's this--" he said suddenly. "But it's frightfully hard to put
into words. You know what I told you about Frank's coming to me at
Barham?"
"Yes."
"Well, there was something he said then that made me uncomfortable. And
it's made me more and more uncomfortable ever since ..." (He paused
again.) "Well, it's this. He said that he felt there was something going
on that he couldn't understand--some sort of Plan, he said--in which he
had to take part--a sort of scheme to be worked out, you know. I suppose
he meant God," he explained feebly.
Dick looked at him questioningly.
"Oh! I can't put it into words," said Jack desperately. "Nor did he,
exactly. But that was the kind of idea. A sort of Fate. He said he was
quite certain of it.... And there were lots of little things that fitted
in. He changed his clothes in the old vestry, you know--in the old
church. It seemed like a sort of sacrifice, you know. And then I had a
beastly dream that night. And then there was something my mother said....
And now there's his letter: the one I showed you at dinner--about
something that might happen to him.... Oh! I'm a first-class ass, aren't
I?"
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