Political fiction; Russia -- History -- 1801-1917 -- Fiction; Russia -- Officials and employees -- Fiction
Speak for yourself, you will say, and for your miseries in your
underground holes, and don’t dare to say all of us—excuse me,
gentlemen, I am not justifying myself with that “all of us.” As for
what concerns me in particular I have only in my life carried to an
extreme what you have not dared to carry halfway, and what’s more, you
have taken your cowardice for good sense, and have found comfort in
deceiving yourselves. So that perhaps, after all, there is more life in
me than in you. Look into it more carefully! Why, we don’t even know
what living means now, what it is, and what it is called? Leave us
alone without books and we shall be lost and in confusion at once. We
shall not know what to join on to, what to cling to, what to love and
what to hate, what to respect and what to despise. We are oppressed at
being men—men with a real individual body and blood, we are ashamed of
it, we think it a disgrace and try to contrive to be some sort of
impossible generalised man. We are stillborn, and for generations past
have been begotten, not by living fathers, and that suits us better and
better. We are developing a taste for it. Soon we shall contrive to be
born somehow from an idea. But enough; I don’t want to write more from
“Underground.”
[The notes of this paradoxalist do not end here, however. He could not
refrain from going on with them, but it seems to us that we may stop
here.]
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