My passage for California is taken for the 4th of December; Elly
and Temple have written to me to come at once--they are settled in
San Francisco for the winter. My brother-in-law here has been
promised that I shall be made so comfortable I shan't want to tear
myself from the ship when I arrive. The captain is a friend of
Temple's, and also of my uncle Captain Temple, and both of them are
going to arrange so for me that I fully expect the ship to be hung
with banners and flowers when I step on board.... I enjoyed my time
in Boston far more than I had expected--in fact immensely, and
wouldn't have missed it for anything; I feel now as if it had
_necessarily_ had to happen. I don't know how I should have done
the winter, and especially started off for an indefinitely long
absence in the west without the impetus that it gave me in certain
directions--the settling down and shaking up, the dissipating of
certain impressions that I had thought fixed and the strengthening
of others that I hadn't been so sure of: an epoch in short. I dare
say you have had such--in which a good deal of living was done in a
short time, to be turned over and made fruitful in days to come. I
saw Mr. Holmes once, and was very glad of that glimpse, short as it
was. I went home by way of Newport, where I stayed two days--and
where I was surprised to hear of Fred Jones's engagement to Miss
Rawle of Philadelphia. Do you know her? When I got to New York I
went to the Hones' to ask something about Fred and his affairs and
found that Miss Rawle was staying next door with Mrs. Willy Duncan;
so I went in to see her on the spur of the moment, very much as I
had come from the boat, not particularly presentable for a first
call: however, I thought if she had a soul she wouldn't mind
it--and such I found the case.... Lizzie Boott was as sweet and
good to me as ever; I think she is at once the most unselfish and
most unegotistical girl I know--they don't always go together.
What follows here has, in its order, I think, that it still so testifies
to life--if one doesn't see in it indeed rather perhaps the instinct on
the writer's part, though a scarce conscious one, to wind up the affairs
of her spirit, as it were, and be able to turn over with a sigh of
supreme relief for an end intimately felt as at hand. The moral
fermentation breaking through the bustle of outward questions even at a
time when she might have thrown herself, as one feels, on the great soft
breast of equalising Nature, or taken her chance of not being too wrong,
is a great stroke of truth. No one really could be less "morbid"; yet
she would take no chance--it wasn't in her--of not being right with the
right persons; among whom she so ranked her correspondent.
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