Notes of hospital life from November, 1861, to August, 1863Anonymous
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Notes of hospital life from November, 1861, to August, 1863
Anonymous
United States -- History -- Civil War, 1861-1865 -- Hospitals
What was to be done? Here was indeed a dilemma. He was exciting the
attention of the whole ward; it was within half an hour of inspection
when the surgeon in charge goes his rounds through the wards,--what would
he say? Was this the way that the ladies excited their patients? But
beyond and above all, he was injuring himself; and with the tendency to
inflammation in his head, I dreaded the effect of such strong excitement,
and yet all I said seemed but to increase it. Suddenly it occurred to
me that (something on the principle of “similia similibus curantur,”
little as I usually admire the practice) perhaps by evoking another
feeling equally powerful, I might calm him; and knowing that no one, be
it man or woman, will ever submit quietly to blame without an attempt at
self-justification, I changed my tactics at once, and said:
“How it is possible, that a father, who has one grain of love for his
children, can permit them to remain one day, or hour, in such a den as
that, is to me a marvel that I cannot comprehend.”
The rûse was a perfect success. Starting up in his bed, with flashing
eyes, he said, with a vehemence which at another time would have
frightened me:
“How cruel! I couldn’t help it, and you know I couldn’t; haven’t I told
you how it breaks my heart, night and day, to think of them there, and I
tied here and can’t get them away?”
This was all I wanted; he poured forth a volley of eager self-defence,
and ere it was half over, my mind was quite relieved about him, and I
had the satisfaction of seeing him in a short time quite composed, and
anxiously seeking to know every particular of my visit. He would not
be content without hearing over and over the most minute details, all
the time stroking and patting the feather, as though it were indeed the
little one it symbolized.
The following Sunday, as I passed through the ward to attend service,
I saw the three children on the bed; the two boys seated at the foot,
and the little Rosita lying on his breast, with that dimpled arm round
his neck, as he had wished. He smiled as he saw me, and held up the
feather. I never saw him again. I heard, the next time that I came to
the hospital, that news had been brought him of his wife’s death at the
almshouse; he had been allowed to go out on a pass, but had failed to
return, and nothing further had been heard from him.
Poor José! We shall, in all probability, never meet again on earth; but I
can never think of him without finding, in his history, the most powerful
proof that “these men _have_ feeling.”
ROBINSON.
“War is an unmixed evil; look at it as you will, it is, it must be, an
unmixed evil!”
This, in an indignant tone, from one, standing at my side, gazing at one
of its saddest results.
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