Notes of hospital life from November, 1861, to August, 1863Anonymous
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Notes of hospital life from November, 1861, to August, 1863
Anonymous
United States -- History -- Civil War, 1861-1865 -- Hospitals
Look at that man stooping down and playing with Dick, our hospital pet.
A gentleman? you ask, and I cannot wonder that you do. Every one who
sees him says, “But he isn’t one of the privates?” He is; but I imagine
there is no one here more anxious to flourish in shoulder-straps. He
has interested me much since I first met him here; he was very sick when
he came in, but I did not see him until he was better, and taking his
place as one of the orderlies--as our rule is in the hospitals, that
convalescents turn into wardmasters and orderlies, before they are fit
for active service on the field. His deference to the ladies, and certain
little graces of manner, showed birth and breeding; and I said to M.
one day, “That man was born a gentleman.” I found that she quite agreed
with me, and had been struck by the same thing. And yet there was an air
of dissatisfaction at times, and a bitterness of expression which I was
at a loss to account for. One morning I had brought some books to the
hospital, and on offering them to him, amongst others, he told me that
he had so injured his eyes by over-study at college, that he was unable
to use them at all at present. A few words more, and I discovered that
he was a loyal Virginian, who, on the breaking out of the rebellion, had
left family, friends, and a beautiful home, to enlist in our army. All
his relations were bitterly opposed to the step; and he told me, with
much pain, that when our army was in the neighborhood of his home, he
had gone there to see his family, but that they had positively refused
to see him, or even to allow him admittance. I could scarcely wonder at
his depression after this; but it seemed to me that the consciousness of
right, in the step he had taken, should have brought him more content and
peace than he seemed to possess. A few afternoons since, he came in, as
usual, with his waiter, to carry the supper to the sick men (those unable
to leave their beds) in his ward. I noticed, as I arranged the plates for
him, that he looked much disturbed, and that his hand trembled.
“King,” said I, “you are hardly strong enough yet to carry that waiter;
you should ask one of the other orderlies to do it for you.”
I seemed to have fired a mine. Setting the waiter down upon the table, he
burst forth:
“It’s no want of strength, Miss ----, but what would you think if you saw
Dr. ---- and Dr. ---- (naming two of our surgeons) playing wardmaster and
orderly in a hospital in the South? My position was just what theirs is,
and I chafe at this menial work. My blood boils at playing waiter for the
men here; I can’t stand it, and I won’t.”
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