American fiction -- 20th century; Short stories, American -- Periodicals
A question carelessly thought and instantly answered caused him to
return to earth sooner than he had intended. The answer to his question
had been in the nature of a hard jolt. It had to do with sin.
Sin, he learned, is not doing something which other people regard as
sinful, but something which you yourself know to be sinful. Lying,
theft, arson, murder, bigamy may on occasion be acts of light, charity,
and commiseration, no matter how the man-mob may execrate, judge, and
punish them. But the same things may be also the worst of crimes. And
only the individual who commits them can possibly know. That individual
doesn’t even have to know. It is what he thinks that counts; not what he
pretends to think, not what he swears in open court that he did think,
but what, without self-deception, he actually did and does think.
And Derrick learned that if during his brief absence from them any of
those earth persons whom he loved so dearly had sinned, committed some
act or other which they knew for themselves to be sinful, there would be
an opaque veil which neither his eyes nor theirs could pierce, nor the
words of their mouths.
But he was not _greatly_ worried.
As men count time he had been absent from the earth and from his loved
ones only for a very short time. They would still be in the depths of
mourning for him. And even if they were evilly disposed persons, which
they were not, they would hardly have had time to think of anything but
their grief and their loss.
IV
As he left the Place of the wonderful lights and shades and colours and
perfumes, he realized that he could not have been perfectly happy in it.
He could not have been _perfectly_ happy, because he now perceived that
by the mere act of leaving it behind he had become still happier, and
that perfect happiness could only be his when he reached “home” and
beheld his loved ones.
When he had been taken from his home to the hospital the buds on the
pear trees had been on the point of bursting. The pear trees would be in
full bloom now. When he had been taken away the shutters of the house
had been taken from their hinges, painted a pleasant apple green and
stood in the old carriage house to dry. They would be back on their
hinges now, vying in smartness with the two new coats of white paint
which the painters had been spreading over the low rambling house
itself. How sweet the house would look among the fresh young greens of
spring! Perhaps the peewees who came every year had already begun to
build in the veranda eaves.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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