“And with me they would die even if I went with the Children of
Deliverance into the caverns of Mount Austral and survived the ruin of
the world. How can you mock me like that, Alma? Have I not suffered
enough for my weakness and my folly that you would condemn me to wander
an exile in the wilderness that the world will be when it has passed
through its baptism of fire?
“What is the swift death of battle or the short agony of the
conflagration of the world compared with the long death-in-life that I
should drag out alone in the new world that may arise from the ruins of
this one?”
“And why alone, Alan?”
“Why alone? Can you ask me that, Alma? Surely you are mocking me now.
Can you ask why I should be alone if I survived with the remnant of our
people? Do you not even yet know why I choose the certainty of death
rather than the chance of life?”
“But, Alan, what if I were to tell you that you would not go alone to
the caverns, and that if the chosen few survive you will not wander
alone on the wilderness of the new world?”
“I should tell you, Alma, that you meant to sacrifice yourself to save
me, and that I would not accept the sacrifice even at your hands.”
“Sacrifice! No, Alan, I would not outlive the world, even with you,
on those terms. A woman of Aeria does not sell herself even for
sentiment. This is no time for secrets or false shame, and I tell you
frankly that if you had accepted the order of the Council, you should
have lived and I would have died.
“But your rebellion proved to me that Isma was right when she rebuked
my false pride by saying that the man who has fallen and risen again is
better and stronger than he who has never suffered”--
“But, Alma, remember”--
“No, you must not interrupt me now, or what ought to be said may never
be spoken. I know what you were going to say. You were going to tell me
to remember that Olga Romanoff is still alive. Let her live--and let
God judge her for her sins in the judgment that is so soon to come!
What have we to do with her?”
“Nothing, Alma, after you have said that, for it tells me that in
your eyes the stain is purged and the fault forgiven. I will take the
message to her as to the rest of the world. If she receives it in peace
then there shall be peace, and God shall judge between us”--
“And if not?”
“Then I will pit my single ship against hers and her fleet and only one
of us, if either, shall see the end.”
“And if that is you--what then?”
“Then it will be for you--under Heaven--to speak the words of life or
death, for only you can bid me live, Alma.”
[Illustration: “ONLY YOU CAN BID ME LIVE, ALMA.” _Page 317._]
As he spoke the great lights on the mountain tops suddenly blazed
out, shone for a few moments, and were extinguished again. It was the
answering signal to one from Mars; but it joined two souls as well as
two worlds, for by its light Alan saw on Alma’s face and in her eyes
the one reprieve from death that honour would permit him to accept.
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