Raymond Prince saw all these preparations and took them as a spectacle.
He was now frankly but an onlooker in life, and he gazed at big things
from their far rim. He had no spare funds to put into federal hands, and
felt by no means able to afford the conversion of any of his few
remaining investments with a loss of nearly half his present returns. He
viewed a patriotic parade or two from the curbstone and attended now
and then some patriotic meeting in the public parks--a flag-raising, for
example. On these occasions he preferred to stand at some remove, so
that it would be unnecessary to raise his hat: the requirement of a
formal salute made him distressingly self-conscious. Yet he was
displeased if other men, no nearer, failed to lift theirs; and he would
be indignant when young fellows, engaged in games near by, gave the
exercises no heed at all.
In one of the parades the flag of France went by. This was a picturesque
and semi-exotic event; it stirred some memories of early days abroad,
and Raymond, with an effort, did, stiffly and with an obvious (even an
obtrusive) self-consciousness, manage to get off his hat. A highly vocal
young man alongside looked at this cold and creaking manoeuvre with
disapproval, even disgust.
"Can't you holler?" he asked.
No, Raymond could not "holler." The dead hand of conscious propriety was
upon him, checking any momentum that might lead to a spontaneous
expression of patriotic feeling. The generous human juices could not
run--could not even get started. When he said good-bye to Albert, it was
not as to a son, nor even to a friend's son. Albert himself might have
objected to any emotional expression that was too clearly to be seen;
but he would have welcomed one which, cloaked in an unembarrassing
obscurity, might at least have been felt. Johnny McComas frankly let
himself "go," not only with Tom, but with Albert too. Albert could not
but think within himself that it was all somewhat overdone; he was a bit
abashed, even if not quite shamefaced. But the recollection of Johnny's
warm hand-clasp and vibrant voice sometimes came to comfort him, in camp
across the water, at times when the picture of his own father's chill
adieux brought little aid.
IV
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