For a day or two a mental contemplation of this necessarily severe
course brought him moments of comparative peace of mind. It justified
in a measure, at least, his own remissness, and yet even that
mind-state at times was rudely shaken. At each day's end, after he had
made his reluctant ascent of the hill which led up to Young Denny's
unlighted house, and a far speedier, none too dignified return, the
little driver of the squealing buggy made it a point to turn off and
stop for a moment or two before the gate of John Anderson's cottage.
At first the girl's real need of him prompted this daily detour; then,
when the actual need no longer existed, he excused the visit on the
plea of her lonesomeness and his promise to Denny to look after her.
His own loneliness--for he had never been so lonely before in all his
lonely life--and the other and real reason for this habit, he never
allowed himself to scrutinize too closely. But each day he sat a
little forward on the buggy seat as soon as he had turned the last
sharp curve in the road and stared eagerly ahead through the afternoon
dusk until he made out her slim figure leaning against the fence
waiting for him. And every afternoon, after he had pulled the
shuffling horse to a standstill, he bent down from his vantage point
on the high seat to scan her upturned face minutely, almost craftily
at times, for some tell-tale trace of tears on her long lashes, or a
possible quiver of her lips, or a suspicious droop in her boyish
shoulders. And he never discovered either the one or the other.
It was at such moments that his peace of mind suffered, for no sane
man could ever have read, by any stretching of the imagination,
anything akin to sorrow or sadness in the low laugh with which she
invariably met his scrutiny. It fairly bubbled joy. Each day Old Jerry
found her only happy--offensively happy--and where he had been
secretly watching her for one betraying sign he became uneasily
conscious after a time that very often she, too, seemed to be scanning
his own face as if she were trying to penetrate into the inner tumult
of perplexities behind his seamed forehead. Some days he was almost
certain that there was a calculating light in her steady eyes--a hint
of half-hidden delight in something he couldn't understand--and it
worried him. It bothered him almost as much as did the unvaried
formula with which she greeted him every afternoon.
"Have you any news for me today?" she always asked him. "Surely you've
something new to tell me this afternoon--now, haven't you?"
The tone in which she made the query was never anything but disarming;
it was quite childishly wheedling and innocently eager, he thought.
But reiterated from day to day it wore on his nerves after a while.
Added to the something he sometimes thought he caught glimmering in
her tip-tilted eyes, it made him more than a little uncomfortable. He
fell back upon a quibble to dodge the issue.
"Was you expectin' a letter?" he always countered.
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