“With a young lady who cannot speak of him without blushing,” said Mrs.
Morris, calmly; and continued: “At first sight it does seem a very cruel
thing to inspire such a man with a hopeless passion, yet, on second
thought, we see what a stream of sunlight this early memory will throw
over the whole bleak landscape of his after-life. You are his torture
now, but you will be his benefactor in many a dark hour of the dreary
pilgrimage before him. There will be touches of tenderness in that ode
he 'll send to the magazine; there will be little spots of sweet
melancholy in that village story; men will never know whence they found
their way into the curate's heart. How little aware are they that
there's a corner there for old memories, embalmed amongst holier
thoughts,--a withered rose-leaf between the pages of a prayer-book!”
May again sighed, and with a tremor in the cadence that was almost a
sob.
“So that,” resumed the other, in a more flippant voice, “you can forgive
yourself for your present cruelty, by thinking of all the benefits you
are to bestow hereafter, and all this without robbing your rightful lord
of one affection, one solitary emotion, he has just claim to. And that,
my sweet May, is more than you can do with your worldly wealth, for,
against every check you send your banker, the cashier's book will retain
the record.”
“You only confuse me with all this,” said May, pettishly. “I came for
counsel.”
“And I have given you more,--I have given you consolation. I wish any
one would be as generous with _me!_”
“Oh, you are not angry with me!” cried the girl, earnestly.
“Angry! no, dearest, a passing moment of selfish regret is not anger,
but it is of _you_, not of _me_, I would speak; tell me everything. Has
Charles spoken to you?”
“Not a word. It may be indifference, or it may be that, in a sense of
security about the future, he does not care to trouble himself.”
“Nay, scarcely that,” said the other, thoughtfully.
“Whatever the cause, you will own it is not very flattering to _me_,”
said she, flushing deeply.
“And Mr. Layton,--is _he_ possessed of the same calm philosophy? Has he
the same trustful reliance on destiny?” said Mrs. Morris, who,
apparently examining the lace border of her handkerchief, yet stole a
passing glance at the other's face.
“How can you ask such a question? What is _he_ to _me_, or _I_ to _him?_
If he ever thought of me, besides, he must have remembered that the
difference of station between us presents an insurmountable objection.”
“As if Love asked for anything better,” cried Mrs. Morris, laughingly.
“Why, dearest, the passion thrives on insurmountable objections, just
the way certain fish swallow stones, not for nutriment, but to aid
digestion by a difficulty. If he be the man I take him for, he must hug
an obstacle to his heart as a Heaven-sent gift. Be frank with me, May,”
said she, passing her arm affectionately round her waist; “confess
honestly that he told you as much.”
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