“This reserve is not very generous towards me, I must say,” said the
girl, passionately.
“It is from generosity to you that I maintain it,” said the other,
coldly.
“But if I were to tell you that the knowledge interests me deeply; that
by it I may possibly be guided in a most eventful decision?”
“Oh, if you mean to say, 'Alfred Layton has asked me to marry him, and
my reply depends upon what I may learn about his family and their
station '--”
“No, no; I have not said that,” burst in May.
“Not said, only implied it. Still, if it be what you desire me to
entertain, I will have no concealments from you.”
“I cannot buy your secret by a false pretence, Loo; there is no such
compact as this between Layton and myself. Alfred asked me--”
“Alfred!” said Mrs. Morris, repeating the name after her, and with such
a significance as sent all the color to the girl's cheek and forehead,--
“Alfred! And what did Alfred ask you?”
“I scarcely know what I am saying,” cried May, as she covered her face
with her hands.
“Poor child!” cried Mrs. Morris, tenderly, “I can find my way into your
heart without your breaking it. Do not cry, dearest. I know as well all
that he said as if I had overheard him saying it! The world has just its
two kinds of suitors,--the one who offers us marriage in a sort of grand
princely fashion, and the other who, beseechingly proclaiming his utter
unworthiness, asks us to wait,--to wait for an uncle or a stepmother's
death; to wait till he has got this place in the colonies, or that
vicarage in Bleakshire; to wait till he has earned fame and honor, and
Heaven knows what; till, in fact, he shall have won a wreath of laurel
for his brows, and we have attained to a false plait for ours!” She
paused a second or two to see if May would speak, but as she continued
silent, Mrs. Morris went on: “There are few stock subjects people are
more eloquent in condemning than what are called long engagements. There
are some dozen of easy platitudes that every one has by heart on this
theme; and yet, if the truth were to be told, it is the waiting is the
best of it,--the marriage is the mistake! That faint little flickering
hope that lighted us on for years and years is extinguished at the
church door, and never relighted after; so that, May, my advice to you
is, never contract a long engagement until you have made up your mind
not to marry at the end of it! My poor, poor child! why are you sobbing
so bitterly? Surely I have said nothing to cause you sorrow?”
May turned away without speaking, but her heaving shoulders betrayed how
intensely she was weeping.
“May _I_ see him,--may _I_ speak with him, May?” said Mrs. Morris,
drawing her arm affectionately around her waist.
“To what end,--with what view?” said the girl, suddenly and almost
haughtily.
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