“Mr. Tredethlyn, on _my_ honour, I know the world better than you do. If
you had devoted yourself to any other woman in this house, to any
daughter of that mercantile aristocracy in which Mr. Hillary rules
supreme, no sneering comments would have greeted your ear. But what am
I--the daughter of the Desmonds of Desmond--amongst these people? What
am I but Maude Hillary’s dependant and companion? I am poor, and I
endure poverty in its most cruel bitterness; for I am poor amongst the
vulgar rich. Who can give me credit for sincerity? who dare trust in my
friendship? I am a well-bred pauper, a fortune-huntress, an adventuress,
a creature whose smiles are to be dreaded, whose society is to be
avoided. O Francis Tredethlyn,” cried Julia, with a sudden shiver of
agony, which would have done credit to a Rachel, “_I know so well_ what
has been said to you. Go--go at once. You are wise to accept the warning
conveyed in these people’s insolent insinuations. Go--there is a gulf
between you and me, for you are rich and I am poor. Beware of me even
when I seem most sincere. Remember that I am a pauper, and the
descendant of paupers--paupers who shed their blood and squandered their
fortunes in a losing cause; paupers who died for the love of honour and
loyalty, two words that would seem the emptiest sounds to merchants and
tradesmen. Oh, Mr. Tredethlyn, have pity upon me, and go.”
And then Miss Desmond broke down all at once into a burst of hysterical
sobbing, and stretching out her hand towards the back of a _prie-dieu_
chair standing near her, tottered as if she would have fallen. She did
not fall, however; for before her hand could reach the _prie-dieu_,
Francis Tredethlyn’s strong arm was round her.
“Miss Desmond,” he cried, “Julia! why do you talk like this? Do you
think that any base thought about you ever entered _my_ brain?
Fortune-huntress, adventuress--did I ever wrong you in my inmost
thoughts by such a name as that?”
“No,” answered Julia, softly. “_You_ are too noble; and yet you may have
been influenced by others. Why should you think better of me than others
think? Why should not you too despise me?”
Her voice was broken by sobs, and she was still supported by Mr.
Tredethlyn’s arm. He felt that she was trembling violently. He could
just distinguish her handsome profile in the dusk, and the tears
glittering upon her dark lashes.
“Despise you, Julia! you who are so superior to me! Do you forget what I
am? Have I not much greater reason to fear your contempt? And you talk
of poverty, as if that were so deep a suffering, while I am so rich, and
care so little for my money. Share it with me, Julia. I’m only a poor
waif and stray as it is; but with such a woman as you for my wife I
might be of some good in the world. Heaven knows you are welcome to my
fortune, Miss Desmond. If you were a man, and my comrade, I would say,
Share it with me as my brother and my friend. But you are a woman, and I
can only say, Be my wife.”
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