I know she wanted to go with him, poor, tender-hearted thing; and
I heard her say to him, so pitiful like, once, ‘Oh, Robert, what will
become of me when you are gone! If you would only take me!’ But he only
laughed at her, and cried out, ‘What! abandon the baby?’ So at last the
time came for him to go, and his poor wife got paler and paler every
day, till I’m sure she looked like a living corpse walking about the
house,” said Miss Banks, unconsciously paraphrasing Shelley.
“And this man left her?”
“Lor’, yes, what did he care for her looking white and sorrowful? He was
more wrapped up in his new portmanteaus, and travelling-bags, and
dressing-cases, and such-like, than in his wife or his child. He went
off as gay as could be, though he left Mrs. Lesley almost
broken-hearted. And he didn’t leave her too well off either, I know,
though she always paid mother to the moment; but all her pretty dresses
and bonnets that Mr. Lesley had bought her in Paris had grown shabby,
and he hadn’t bought her any new ones. He had so many expenses, she told
me; for she was always making excuses for him like, and pretending that
he was very good to her. Poor dear thing! after he was gone away the
baby was her only comfort; and I’m sure if it hadn’t been for that child
she’d have fretted herself away into the grave. Well, sir, the baby was
four months old when Mr. Lesley went away to Germany, and he was only to
be away three months at the longest, Susan told me: she was very
friendly with me, and I always called her Susan. And she used to count
the days just as she did before; and she’d say to me often how the time
was going, and her husband would soon be back. She used to write him
letters,--such long letters, all full of her talk about the baby, and
his taking notice, and growing, and such-like; but she didn’t have many
letters from him. ‘You see, Jemima, he’s always going from place to
place,’ she said; ‘and then my letters lie at the post-offices where I
direct them, and half the time he doesn’t receive them at all; so I
can’t wonder at not hearing very often from him.’ She used to be so
pleased, poor dear, when a letter did come, though I’m sure they were
short enough, for I’ve seen her open them; but, ah! when the three
months went by, and Mr. Lesley didn’t come back, how dreadfully she did
fret!--always secretly, though; for she didn’t seem to like that anybody
should know her troubles, for fear they should blame him, the brute!
‘He’s going farther north,’ she told me; ‘Germany’s such a big country,
you know, Jemima; and I’m afraid, from what Robert says, he thinks of
going beyond Germany, to St. Petersburg, perhaps. You see, it’s
necessary for him to travel in order to complete his education.’ I
couldn’t help laughing outright at this; for I thought if Mr. Lesley
wasn’t educated enough with all his books, and colleges, and crackjaw
languages, and such-like, he never would be educated. However, that was
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