Only an Ensign: A Tale of the Retreat from Cabul, Volume 3 (of 3)Grant, James
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Only an Ensign: A Tale of the Retreat from Cabul, Volume 3 (of 3)
Grant, James
Afghan Wars -- Fiction
"And this is the only man I ever loved; yet through me, or my
sister's cause--through _us_--has death, perhaps, come untimely upon
him!" Rose would say, wildly and passionately, and in a low,
concentrated voice, as she flung herself at the foot of Denzil's bed;
while all the horror of anticipated loneliness, if he should be taken
away, and she left, came upon her. How bitterly now she felt
punished for all the little follies of the past!
His ailment was, certainly, one under which a patient may linger a
long time--nay, may seem to get well, and then again be worse than
ever, but which, in the end, too often slays. Hence, it is no wonder
that the humble Hakeem, Abu Malec--who believed that a verse of the
Koran written, washed off, and swallowed with reverence, must form a
sovereign remedy, even for an obstinate and benighted infidel--should
stroke his beard in sore perplexity and great wonder, and mutter--
"Thus it is that Allah seals the hearts of those who are steeped in
ignorance! Their doctrines are as a worthless tree, the roots of
which run on the surface of the ground, and hath no stability, and
the blast of heaven will overturn."
"A tiresome old pump! For Heaven's sake, keep him away, Rose!" would
be the comment of the sick subaltern.
And the latter had at times a secret presentiment that he would never
leave the fort of Shireen Khan alive; yet the conviction was sweet
that Rose had loved him, ere he passed away. She would never forget
him now: he felt sure of that. She might love _another_ in time; but
would that matter to him? To die, ere she was restored to the
society and protection of Europeans, was to leave her most lonely and
widowed in heart, and was his keenest affliction; yet he kept it to
himself, having no desire to distress her unnecessarily, though his
ravings sometimes indicated the prevailing thought, and the fear he
saw was in her.
"I don't think I shall die this bout, Rose darling. I cannot have a
very deadly fever! I rode only forty miles--twenty to Loghur, and
twenty back--on Shireen's old brute of a Tartar horse, and smoked
about ten cheroots; but they were execrable--picked up among the lost
baggage; and--and you know, dear mother, they are thorough
disinfectants any way. Oh, no--I can't have a deadly fever. I shall
soon be better, dear, dear mother!"
Thus, Rose would learn that his wandering thoughts had flashed far,
far from her, till the clouds that oppressed his brain would pass
away, and, all ignorant of past delirium, he would welcome her
presence with loving jet forced smiles, and seek to assure her, in a
voice that grew more husky and more weak daily, "that he was
better--oh, so very much better;" adding, "Ah, if we had but Sybil
here--or, rather, if we did but know what has become of her!"
"Sybil--ah, would that I could but know of her! But she shall be my
sister, Denzil; for too surely, I fear, we shall never see Mabel
more!"
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