When Annie was under mental excitement, she was a rapid, fluent talker,
and this was especially her condition this evening. As she looked
earnestly at Gregory while she spoke, her dark eyes glowing with
feeling and intelligence and lighting her whole face, he was impressed
more than he could have been by the labored arguments of a cool,
logical scholar. Her intense earnestness put a soul into the body of
her words. He was affected more than he wished her to know, more than
was agreeable to his pride. What she had said seemed so perfectly true
and real to her that for the time she made it true to him; and yet to
admit that his long-standing doubts could not endure so slight an
assault as this, was to show that they had a very flimsy basis.
Moreover, he knew that when, left to himself, he should think it all
over, new questions would rise that could not be answered, and new
doubts return. Therefore he could not receive now what he might be
disposed to doubt to-morrow. He was a trifle bewildered, and wanted
time to think. He was as much interested in Miss Walton as in what she
was saying, and when her words proved that she was a thoughtful woman,
and could be the intelligent companion of any man, the distracting fear
grew stronger that when she came to know him well, she would coldly
stand aloof. The very thought was unendurable. In all the world, only
in the direction of Annie Walton seemed there any light for him. So to
gain time he instinctively sought to give a less serious turn to the
conversation, by saying, "Come, Miss Walton, this is the best preaching
I've ever heard. It seems to me quite unusual to find a young lady so
interested and well versed in these matters. You must have given a good
deal of thought and reading to the subject."
Annie looked disappointed. She had hoped for a better result from her
earnest words than a compliment and a little curiosity as to herself.
But she met him in his own apparent mood, and said, "Now see how easily
imposed upon your sceptical people are! I could palm myself off, like
Portia, as a Daniel come to judgment, and by a little discreet silence
gain a blue halo as a woman of deep research and profound reading. Just
the contrary is true. I am not a very great reader on any subject, and
certainly not on theology and kindred topics. The fact is I am largely
indebted to my father. He is interested in the subjects and takes pains
to explain much to me that would require study; and since mother died
he has come to talk to me very much as he did to her. But it seems to
me that all I have said is very simple and plain, and you surely know
that my motive was not to air the little instruction I have received."
Gregory's policy forsook him as he saw her expression of
disappointment; and as he looked at her flushed and to him now lovely
face, acting upon a sudden impulse he asked, "Won't you please tell me
your motive?"
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