She looked at him wistfully. The sermon had not been what she would
have wished, but she trusted it would do him good by cutting away every
hope based on anything in himself or in vague general ideas of God's
indiscriminate mercy. She answered gently, "The contrast was indeed
great, now I think of it, and yet each scene was matter-of-fact to me
in the sense of being real. Besides, that one which our pastor
described was a court of justice. I shall have an Advocate there who
will clear me. As for 'bright days,' I believe they are just what God
means His people to have always."
"Yes," said he, gloomily, "that is your side of the question."
"It may be yours also," she replied, in a low tone.
He shook his head and looked away to hide his pain.
After a short time he again said, "Do you not think that the view of
God which your minister gave is very depressing to the average man? Is
not His law too perfect for imperfect humanity?"
"Not at all," she answered, eagerly; but before she could say more, Mr.
Walton, unaware of the subject occupying them, turned from the front
seat and introduced another topic.
After dinner, Gregory went to his room, which he restlessly paced.
"Even her creed, her faith, as well as her purity and truth, raises a
wall as high as heaven between us," he exclaimed, bitterly. "She has
only to see me as God sees, to shrink away appalled, disgusted. Well,
she shall," he muttered, grinding his teeth; "I shall not add the worst
torment of all to my perdition by deceiving her."
As he came down stairs, Annie had just finished reading to the
children, and he said, "Miss Walton, will your ideas of Sabbath-keeping
prevent you from taking a stroll in the garden with me?"
"Not at all," she replied, smiling. "A garden is a good place to keep
Sunday in."
He walked silently at her side across the lawn down a shady walk. Annie
hoped much from this interview, and sent a swift, earnest prayer to
Heaven that she might speak wisely. She feared that his dejection would
pass into discouragement and despair. She saw that he was much
depressed, and judged correctly that it was because he had seen only
one side of a great truth. She hoped to cheer and inspire him with the
other side. Moreover, her religion was very simple. It was only
becoming God's friend, instead of remaining indifferent or hostile. To
her, no matter what the burden, it was simply leading the heavy-laden
to the strong Divine Friend as people were brought to Him of old, and
establishing the personal relations of love, faith, and following.
But she did not realize the desperate nature or the complications of
Gregory's moral infirmity. Still she was a safe adviser, for she did
not propose to cure him herself. She wished to rally and cheer him, to
inspire hope, and to turn his eyes from sin to the Saviour, so she
said, "Mr. Gregory, why do you look as if marching to execution?"
"Perhaps because I feel as if I were," he said.
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