Then strongly arose the womanly instinct of self-shielding, and the
purpose to hide her secret. An hour before, Gregory could not come too
often. He might have stooped down and as a brother kissed her lips, and
she would not have thought it strange or unnatural. Now she dreaded to
see him. And yet when would he be out of her thoughts? She hoped and
half-believed that he was beginning to regard her as a sister, and
still, deep in her soul, this thought had an added sting of pain.
Ah, Annie! you thought you loved before, but a master-spirit has now
come who will stir depths in your nature of which neither you nor
Hunting dreamed.
Hunting, seemingly, had no further cause to be jealous of Gregory
during the rest of the voyage. With the whole strength of her proud,
resolute nature, Annie guarded her secret. She sent kind messages to
Gregory, and returned the Bible, but did not ask him to visit her
again. Neither did she come on deck herself till they were entering the
harbor of an English port.
When Gregory came eagerly toward her, though her face flushed deeply,
she greeted him with a kind and gentle dignity, which, nevertheless,
threw a chill upon his heart. All the earnest words he meant to say
died upon his lips, and gave way to mere commonplaces. Drawing her
heavy shawl about her, she sat down and looked back toward the sea as
if regretting leaving it with all its horrors. He thought, "When have I
seen such a look of patient sorrow on any human face? She saw the love
I could not hide at our last interview. I did not deceive her by
calling her 'sister.' Her great, generous heart is grieving because of
my hopeless love, while in the most delicate manner she reminds me how
vain it is. Now I know why she did not send for me again."
He walked away from the little group pale and faint, and she could not
keep back the hot tears as she watched him. Miss Eulie was also
observant, and saw how they misunderstood each other. But she acted as
if blind, feeling that quickly coming events would right everything
better than any words of hers.
Gregory went to another part of the vessel, and leaned over the
railing. Annie noticed with an absorbing interest that he seemed as
indifferent to the delight of the passengers at the prospect of soon
being on land, and the bustle on the wharf, as he had appeared at the
commencement of the voyage. But she rightly guessed that there was
tumult at his heart. There certainly was at hers. When the vessel
dropped anchor and they would soon go ashore, he turned with the
resolve, "I will show her that I can bear my hard lot like a man," and
again came toward them, a proud and courteous gentleman.
Annie saw and understood the change, and her heart was chilled by a
sense of loneliness and isolation greater than if the stormy Atlantic
had rolled between them. And yet his manner toward her was very gentle,
very considerate.
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