"You have shown a great deal of tact and consideration this afternoon,
Mr. Gregory, in choosing topics on which we could agree, or about which
it is as nice to differ a little. I wish it were the same in regard to
those things that make up one's life, as it were;" and she looked at
him closely to see how he would take this.
After a moment he said, a little bitterly, "In order to be your friend,
must one look at everything through the same colored glass that you
employ?"
"Oh, no," she replied, earnestly; "it is not fair to say that. But you
seem almost hostile to all that I love best and think most of, and my
sigh was rather an earnest and oft-recurring wish that it were
otherwise."
Again he was silent for a short time, then said, with sudden vehemence,
"And I also wish it were otherwise"; adding more quietly, "but it is
not, Miss Walton. You know me too well, even if I wished to deceive
you. And yet I would give a great deal for such a friendship as you
could bestow. Why can you not give it as it is? The Founder of your
faith was a friend of publicans and sinners."
"He was indeed their friend, and has been ever since," she answered.
"But was it not natural that He found more that was attractive and
congenial in that little group of disciples who were learning to know
and believe in Him?"
"I understand you, Miss Walton. I was unfortunate in my illustration,
and you have turned it against me. You can be my friend, as the
missionary is the friend of the heathen."
"You go to extremes, Mr. Gregory, and are hardly fair. I am not a
missionary, nor are you a heathen. I make my meaning clear when I echo
your thought of a moment ago, and wish that just such a friendship
might exist between us as that between your father and mine."
"I am what I am," he said, with genuine sadness.
"I wish you had my faith in the possibilities of the future," she
replied, turning brightly toward him.
But he shook his head, saying, "I have about lost all faith in
everything as far as I am concerned. Still I feel that if any one could
do me any good, you might, but I fear it is a hopeless task." Then he
changed the subject in such a way as to show that it was painful, and
that he preferred it should be dropped.
After all, the cloud had overcast the sky. The inevitable separation
between those guided by divine principles and those controlled by
earthly influences began to dawn upon him. He caught a glimpse of the
"great gulf," that is ever "fixed" between the good and evil in their
deepest consciousness. The "loneliness of guilt" chilled and oppressed
him, even with the cheery, sympathetic companion at his side. But he
hid his feelings under a forced gayety, in which Annie joined somewhat,
though it gave her a vague shiver of pain. She felt they had been _en
rapport_ for a little while, but now a change had come, even as the
damp and chill of approaching night were taking the place of genial
sunshine.
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