The fret and sting of his hopeless quest had marked John Bamsey, and
now he was come to the knowledge that no hope remained. His dream
dissolved. Until now he had defied reason and lived on shadows spun
of desire. He had sunk beneath his old pride and returned to Dinah's
hand. He had not grovelled; but he assumed an attitude, after the
passing of the first storm, that astonished his family. And Dinah it
astonished also, filling her with fresh pain. He had hung on; he had
asked her to forgive his words upon the bridge; he had returned into
the atmosphere of her and gone and come from home as before.
Dominated by his own passion, he had endured even the wonder in his
mother's eyes, the doubt in Jane's. Dinah could not be explicit to
him, since he had been careful not to give her any opportunity for
the present. But, under his humility, he had bullied her. The very
humility was a sort of bullying, and she felt first distracted and
then indignant that he should persist. To him she could not speak,
but to Faith Bamsey and Jane she could speak; and to the former she
did.
Mrs. Bamsey therefore knew that Dinah was not going to marry John,
and in her heart she was thankful for it; while none the less
indignant that John's perfections should have failed of fruition for
Dinah. She resented Dinah's blindness and obstinacy, and felt
thankful, for John's sake, that the girl would never be his wife. As
for Jane she had never shared her brother's whispered hope that Dinah
would return to him. She hated Dinah, and while hot with sympathy
for her brother, rejoiced that, sooner or later, her father's
foster-daughter must disappear and never be linked to a Bamsey.
Johnny's present attitude, however, she did not know; and it was left
for this hour amid the tree girt rocks of Hazel Tor to teach her.
She longed to learn what he would say if any other man were hinted of
in connection with Dinah. She much wanted Johnny to share her
opinion of Dinah, and now, ripened for mischief by the recent sight
of Maynard, she prepared to sound Johnny. Jerry suspected what was
in her mind and hoped that she would change it. They spoke first of
their own secret, and informed John, after exacting from him promises
of silence.
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