She sat down, and with her elbow on the little table, her head
resting upon her hand, she remained lost in her meditations, her
eyes fixed, as if following through space all the phases of the
eighteen years of her life.
There is no energy but unbends at some given moment, no will but
has its hour of weakness; and, strong and energetic as was Mlle.
Lucienne, she had been deeply touched by Maxence’s act. Had she,
then, found at last upon her path the companion of whom she had
often dreamed in the despairing hours of solitude and wretchedness?
After a few moments, she raised her head, and, looking into
Maxence’s eyes with a gaze that made him quiver like the shock of
an electric battery,
“Doubtless,” she said, in a tone of indifference somewhat forced,
“you think you have in me a strange neighbor. Well, as between
neighbors; it is well to know each other. Before you judge me,
listen.”
The recommendation was useless. Maxence was listening with all
the powers of his attention.
“I was brought up,” she began, “in a village of the neighborhood of
Paris,--in Louveciennes. My mother had put me out to nurse with
some honest gardeners, poor, and burdened with a large family.
After two months, hearing nothing of my mother, they wrote to
her: she made no answer. They then went to Paris, and called at
the address she had given them. She had just moved out; and no one
knew what had become of her. They could no longer, therefore,
expect a single sou for the cares they would bestow upon me. They
kept me, nevertheless, thinking that one child the more would not
make much difference. I know nothing of my parents, therefore,
except what I heard through these kind gardeners; and, as I was
still quite young when I had the misfortune to lose them, I have
but a very vague remembrance of what they told me. I remember very
well, however, that according to their statements, my mother was a
young working-woman of rare beauty, and that, very likely, she was
not my father’s wife. If I was ever told the name of my mother or
my father, if I ever knew it, I have quite forgotten it. I had
myself no name. My adopted parents called me the Parisian. I was
happy, nevertheless, with these kind people, and treated exactly
like their own children. In winter, they sent me to school; in
summer, I helped weeding the garden. I drove a sheep or two along
the road, or else I went to gather violets and strawberries
through the woods.
“This was the happiest, indeed, the only happy time of my life,
towards which my thoughts may turn when I feel despair and
discouragement getting the better of me. Alas! I was but eight,
when, within the same week, the gardener and his wife were both
carried off by the same disease,--inflammation of the lungs.
“On a freezing December morning, in that house upon which the hand
of death had just fallen, we found ourselves, six children, the
oldest of whom was not eleven, crying with grief, fright, cold,
and hunger.
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