Lashmar bit his lip. All at once he saw Mrs. Toplady's smile, and it
troubled him. None the less did he ponder her letter, re-reading it
several times. Presently he mused with uneasiness on the fact that Iris
might even now be writing to Mrs. Toplady. Would her interest in
him--she seemed indeed to be genuinely interested survive the
announcement that, after all, he was not going to marry Constance
Bride, but had declined upon an insignificant little widow with a few
hundreds a year? Was not this upshot of his adventures too beggarly?
Had Mrs. Toplady been within easy reach, he would have gone to see her;
but she wrote from the north of Scotland. He could only await the
result of Iris's letter.
To the news concerning May Tomalin, he gave scarcely a thought. Mr.
Yabsley, of Northampton!
Exceeding weariness sank him for a few hours in sleep; but before dawn
he was tossing again on the waves of miserable doubt. Why had he not
waited a little before going to see Iris? If only he had received this
letter of Mrs. Toplady in time, it would have checked him--or so he
thought. Was it the malice of fate which had ordained that, on his way
to Eastbourne, he should not have troubled to look in at his lodgings?
How many such wretched accidents he could recall! Was he, instead of
being fortune's favourite, simply a poor devil hunted by ill luck,
doomed to lose every chance? Why not he as well as another? Such men
abound.
He had not yet taken the irretrievable step. Until he was actually
married, a hope remained to him. He might postpone the fatal day; his
purse was not yet empty. Why should he be too strict in the report of
his election expenses to Constance? Every pound in his pocket meant a
prolongation of liberty, a new horizon of the possible--
Two days later he was back again at Eastbourne. He had taken a cheap
little lodging, and yielded himself to sea-side indolence. A week
passed, then Iris heard from Mrs. Toplady. She did not at once show
Lashmar the letter; she awaited a moment when he was lulled by physical
comfort into a facile and sanguine humour.
"Mrs. Toplady must have been in a hurry when she wrote this," was her
remark, as, with seeming carelessness, she produced the letter. "Of
course she has an enormous correspondence. I shall hear again from her,
no doubt, before long."
One side only of the note-paper was covered. In formal phrase, the
writer said that she was glad to hear of her friend's engagement, and
wished her all happiness. Not a word about their future meeting; not an
allusion to Lashmar's prospects. If Iris had announced her coming
marriage with some poor clerk, Mrs. Toplady could not have written
less effusively.
"There's an end of her interest in _me_," Dyce remarked, with a nervous
shrug.
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