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And since the attack which had consigned him to darkness he had grown
even more taciturn. He had not repelled sympathy; he had rendered it
impossible by ignoring the existence of a cause for it. While all about
him had feared for his sight and, as hope faded, had dreaded the
question which they believed to be trembling on his lips, he had either
never hoped, or, drawing his own conclusions, had abandoned hope. At
any rate, he had never asked. Instead he sat—when Arthur was not there
to enliven him or Fewtrell to report to him—wrapped in his own
thoughts, too proud to complain or too insensible to feel, and silent.
Whatever he thought, whatever he feared, he hid all behind an
impenetrable mask; and whether pride or patience or resignation were
behind that mark, none knew. Complaint, pity, sympathy, these, he
seemed to say, were for the herd. He had ruled; darkness and
helplessness had come upon him, but he was still the master.
Arthur might think that he failed, but those who were always about him
saw few signs of it. To-day, when Josina entered his room she found him
on his feet, one hand resting on the table, the other on his cane. “Get
your hat and cloak,” he said. “I am going up the hill.”
So far his longest excursion had been to the mill, and Josina thought
that she ought to remonstrate. “Won’t it be too far, sir?” she said.
“Do as I say, girl. And tell Calamy to bring my hat and coat.”
She obeyed him, and a minute later they left the house by the yard
door. He walked with a firm step, his hand sometimes on her shoulder,
sometimes on her arm; but aware how easily she might forget to warn him
of an obstacle, or to allow for his passage, she accompanied him with
her heart in her mouth. Yet she owned a certain sweetness in his
dependence on her, in the weight of his hand on her shoulder, in his
nearness.
Before they left the yard he halted. “Look in the pig-styes,” he said.
“Tell me if that idle dog has cleaned them?”
She went and looked, and assured him that they were in their usual
state. He grunted, and they moved on. Passing beneath the gable end of
the summer-house they descended the steep, rutted lane which led to the
mill. “The first day of the year was such a day,” the Squire muttered,
and raised his face that the sun might fall upon it.
When they came to the narrow bridge beside the mill, with its roughened
causeway eternally shaken by the roar and wet with the spray of the
overshot wheel, she trembled. There was no parapet, and the bridge was
barely wide enough to permit them to pass abreast. But he showed no
fear, he stepped on to it firmly, and on the crown he halted. “Look
what water is in the pound,” he said.
“Had I not better wait—till you are over, sir?”
“Do as I say, girl! Do as I say!” He struck his cane impatiently on the
stones.
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