“Why not?” setting his mouth squarely, with an obstinate expression.
“Well, you know a lot of the people about here think they’re engaged.”
“And if they do—isn’t it a thundering good thing they’re wrong?”
“No, it isn’t,” getting nettled. “If Lawrence has been trifling with
Eileen I’ll kill him.”
“Eileen has too much sense to care for a man who would behave so.”
“You don’t know anything about it. You’re just a great, big, blundering
baby,” and Paddy looked as if she were on the point of tears.
“Whew!” whistled Jack. “What have I been doing now?”
“Nothing, and that’s just it.—If I were a man—if I were Eileen’s
brother, I’d shoot Lawrence. She hasn’t got a brother, but you’re the
next best thing and you ought to do it.”
“I fail to see how I could benefit Eileen by getting myself hanged.”
“I don’t care,” exclaimed Paddy. “I don’t care for any of you. I’ll
have it out with Lawrence some day, and make him pay for this.”
“My dear child! you’re making no end of a fuss about nothing,”
sententiously.
“Child!” echoed Paddy derisively. “And I should like to know what
you’ve ever done to prove yourself a man.”
Jack was so astonished, for a moment he could hardly speak. In all
their lives he had never known Paddy adopt that tone to him, and he
regarded her as if she had suddenly developed into a new species of
wild animal.
“Oh, you needn’t look like that,” ran on poor Paddy, getting more and
more beside herself with exasperation; “you know perfectly well you are
little better than a mere boy. If you had gone out into the world like
other men, and made a way for yourself, you might have come back and
won Eileen, and saved her from all that’s coming. And instead, you have
just sat still and stared at her, and let another man come in and spoil
everything!—and you call that loving! If you’d any possible chance of
providing a home in a year or two, you might be able to do something
even now, but there you sit a mere boy at twenty-five years, and
nothing achieved except a good aim and a good yachtsman.”
Jack was struck dumb.
For a moment they both forgot that Paddy herself had been one of the
principal supporters in his idleness—each in his own way saw only his
pain.
He got down from the gate slowly.
“Good Lord, Paddy!” he said, “I believe you’re right,” and without
stopping or looking back, he strode off across the garden toward the
mountains with his forehead wrinkled into two perpendicular lines.
Paddy watched him a moment, and then rushed away to a lovely little
cove by the shore, and throwing herself down on a bank burst into
tears.
She did not quite know what she was crying about, but when she finally
sat up and dried her eyes she felt better, and was able to review the
situation more calmly.
“Perhaps, after all, Lawrence would soon be back,” she argued, “and she
was making a great fuss needlessly. Or perhaps Eileen did not care so
much as she imagined, and things would all come right yet.”
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