At meal times Jack was nearly always gloomy and preoccupied, or if he
was gay his merriment was evidently forced. Between meals he went for
long, lonely tramps, and constantly those two perpendicular lines
wrinkled his forehead. Strangest of all, he seemed to avoid The Ghan
House, and Paddy was no longer his constant companion.
“Could we ask him, do you think, sister?” little Miss Mary suggested
timidly.
But Miss Jane shook her head mournfully. They were feeling rather as
the hen who has reared ducklings when they first take to water. This
docile, careless-hearted, affectionate boy they had reared, had
suddenly become a man, and in one stride passed beyond their tender,
watchful care. Illness and weakness alone could ever bring him back as
he had been. His troubles, his warfare, his striving, he would
henceforth wrestle with alone.
Moreover, there was Eileen’s white face and deeply shadowed eyes also.
Nothing was said—what was there to say? Only anxious, watchful nights
and yearning pain for another mother, whose fledgling was feeling the
first cold blast of Life’s sorrow.
Mrs Adair’s abundant hair, that had been turning grey of late, seemed
to go white suddenly in those weeks that followed the dance. She had
borne so much; from a very early age Life had held the cup of pain to
her lips, and she had tried to drink and ask no questions. But now, it
seemed to her that she had met the hardest blow of all. Eileen was all
the world to her. Long ago, when life was full of sadness in spite of
her good husband and beautiful home—for the sake of the man whose blood
had stained the ground on that far-off Afghan frontier, Eileen’s baby
face had come as her first real comforter, and been life and joy and
sweetness to her ever since. Perhaps it was a vague, inward
consciousness of this that made the father’s heart turn with equal
devotion to his high-spirited, boisterous second daughter; while never
swerving for a moment from his devotion to her mother.
But now Eileen’s cheeks grew white, and her beautiful eyes developed an
expression of quiet suffering that went to her mother’s heart as little
else could have done, and made Paddy rage inwardly.
Until Lawrence had gone away again, and the old routine recommenced,
she had not known how much she had thought of him during his three
years’ absence. All that time she had cared for him secretly, though
she had hardly admitted it to herself. Then when he came, and again
sought her before all others, and gave her of the best of his charm, it
was only as the match needed for the whole to burst into flame.
Vanishing once more, in silence and suddenness, he had left her with
all her dreams and hopes and happiness scattered broadcast at her feet.
There were moments when she could not understand, when even her
mountains and sky and sea could do nothing to soothe the whirlpool of
conflicting emotions in her heart.
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