Sometimes the General would tell her about his campaigns, of which she
never wearied, or he would go further back still and tell her of the
old days at Sandhurst and Aldershot and all the wild things he had done
then. Once he brought the quick tears to her eyes by saying:
“Ah, Paddy! they were grand times, and I’d have liked you to go through
them; yet where would I have been for a walking stick now? I expect the
Almighty knew best. I married too late in life to be trusted with a
son. Boys want a father who can be a boy with them, and not a crotchety
old man who needs caring for like a child. It’s hard, enough on the
girls—eh, Paddy!—a father who’s too old and decrepit to take them
anywhere or be anything but a burden!”
Paddy stood still suddenly. There were tears in her eyes, but she
frowned like some ferocious Medusa.
“How dare you!” she said sternly. “How dare you speak to me like that!
If you ever say anything of the kind again, you bad, wicked daddy, I
shall just march you back home and not speak to you for a week.”
The General smiled tenderly.
“Do you now, Paddy,” he said a little wistfully, “before you came, I
used sometimes to think I’d done the wrong thing in persuading your
mother to many me. You see, I loved her so; I was certain I could soon
make her forget and love again. But women’s hearts are wonderful
things. I’m thinking God didn’t make anything else quite as wonderful,
and it wasn’t her fault that she couldn’t forget. But she was always
just goodness itself to me, and there was no sacrifice she would not
have made willingly to please me; but after a time I found it wasn’t
any good, for I still felt she was mourning secretly. I couldn’t bear
her to be unhappy, you see, and feel I couldn’t help it. At first I
thought if she would only come to me, and let me have the right to take
care of her always, that in itself would be a world of happiness.
Afterward I found it wasn’t enough. I wanted more of her love. When
Eileen was born she was brighter and happier altogether, and at first I
was content. Then I began to feel a little jealous of the newcomer who
had succeeded where I had failed, and to feel a new sense of
loneliness.”
“Poor daddy,” Paddy said lovingly. “I expect God said to Himself, ‘I
must send him something now that won’t leave him time to think—the very
naughtiest, unmanageable child that can possibly live; and I’ll make it
a girl instead of a boy, so that she’ll be a good walking stick later
on.’ And behold! there was Paddy.”
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