Pages from a Journal with Other PapersWhite, William Hale
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Pages from a Journal with Other Papers
White, William Hale
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Justice is not often done to him. He saw a long way, but he did not make
believe he saw beyond his limit, and was content with it. A rare virtue
is intellectual content!
“Tu ne quæsieris, scire nefas, quem mihi, quem tibi
Finem dî dederint, Leuconoe, nec Babylonios
Tentaris numeros.”
The rector was telling me about Tom Pavenham’s wedding. He has married
Margaret Loxley, as you may perhaps have seen in the paper I sent you.
Mrs. Loxley, her mother, was a Barfield, and old Pavenham, when he was a
youth, fell in love with her. She was also in love with him. He was
well-to-do, and farmed about seven hundred acres, but he was not thought
good enough by the elder Barfields, who lived in what was called a park.
They would not hear of the match. She was sent to France, and he went to
Buenos Ayres. After some years had passed he married out there, and she
married. His wife died when her first child, a boy, was born. Loxley
also died, leaving his wife with an only daughter. Pavenham retired from
business in South America, and came back with his son to his native
village, where he meant to spend the rest of his days. Tom and Margaret
were at once desperately smitten with one another. The father and mother
have kept their own flame alive, and I believe it is as bright as it ever
was. It is delightful to see them together. They called on me with the
children after the betrothal. He was so courteous and attentive to her,
and she seemed to bask in his obvious affection. I noticed how they
looked at one another and smiled happily as the boy and girl wandered off
together towards the filbert walk. The rector told me that he was
talking to old Pavenham one evening, and said to him: “Jem, aren’t you
sometimes sad when you think of what ought to have happened?” His voice
shook a bit as he replied gently: “God be thanked for what we have!
Besides, it has all come to pass in Tom and Margaret.”
You must not be angry with me if I say nothing more about Positive
Education. It is a great strain on me to talk upon such matters, and
when I do I always feel afterwards that I have said much which is mere
words. That is a sure test; I must obey my dæmon. I wish I could give
you what you want for what you have given me; but when do we get what we
want in exchange for what we give? Our trafficking is a clumsy barter.
A man sells me a sheep, and I pay him in return with my grandfather’s old
sextant. This is not quite true for you and me. Love is given and love
is returned. À Dieu—not adieu. Remember that the world is very big, and
that there may be room in it for a few creatures like
Your affectionate godfather,
G. L.
MRS. FAIRFAX
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