American fiction -- 20th century; Manhattan (New York, N.Y.) -- Fiction; Women artists -- Fiction
Without a transposition the conversation glided to the theme of women.
Bell, who was beginning to feel his liqueur, intoned a toast which he
swore he had heard at a dentists' banquet, but a nudge under the table
from Alfred kept him from further rambling. Milt wasn't annoyed. He
calmly sipped his beer, his hearing keen for fluctuations in the moral
market. He had said that a priest must know the human soul inside and
out. To be in the world, yet not of it, to wade through the sins and
heresies of this ignominious age, yet never wallow in them. To stand
in front of the monkey-cage we call life, watch the antics of the
inmates but never imperil his soul by approving of the sarabande of
sex surrounding him. That was the ideal of Milt. He had the makings in
him of a lover, a thinker, a rebel. But never did he lapse into that
stupration of the soul, that orgasm of the intellect, we call desire
and pride; that mass of confused emotion evoked by the curves of the
female form he never indulged in. The brief, dizzy syncope which ensues
during the frantic bundling of the two sexes he had never experienced,
though he yearned for it, during moments of weakness. But he was a
level-headed young man. He knew the strait way, and also the path of
flaming ecstacy. He meant to work long and faithfully in the vineyard
of the Lord, and to accomplish his self-imposed mission he prepared
by studying life from all angles, dubious or beautiful. His heart was
a reservoir overflowing with love for his fellow-men. He cherished
profound affection for his sister, also profound distrust. Her many
excellent, even superlative, qualities were offset by a perverse twist,
not congenital. It might prove her undoing. He fervently prayed for
her conversion, and by some odd association of ideas he prayed for the
salvation of Ulick Invern's soul; that he, with his splendid heritage
of faith, family, fortune, talent, be given the boon of light. Ulick
and Mona made a pleasant picture in the mind of this candidate for the
order of Melchizedek.
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