Fantasy fiction; Utopian fiction; Utopias -- Fiction
As Susie entered, he rose and took her hand. She gave his the faintest
little pressure, and left him no time for preliminaries, but said at
once, “You know the one cause that has made me yield, against my better
judgment, to the desire of your sister and my good friend, Mrs. Buzzell.
Understand well, I do so on this condition, which I imagine,” she added,
a little bitterly, “you will have no objection to—that you never
recognize me as your wife in any way. I, on my part, shall never claim
any legal rights any more than if you were actually dead.”
“That seems to me all bosh. We are not to live together, and that is
enough. Of course, I marry you because I wish to save you from bearing
all the brunt of the battle.”
“The worst is over. All that I can suffer from disgrace I have already
suffered; but I have not lost my self-respect, low as I may be in your
esteem; and I shall not, thanks to the noble hearts that came to me when
I thought God had forsaken me as well as you.”
When Susie said, “low as I am in your esteem,” she had had a sudden hope
that it might reveal his unnatural conduct toward her in so terrible a
light that he would hate himself, and exhibit some sorrow for the misery
he had caused, if not a desire to atone by trying to call back to her
his wandering heart—love is so blind, so foolish, in its way of hoping
against hope! She had decided that the marriage should be only a legal
act, to make her child what society calls legitimate; but oh! it would
have been so sweet to her to be forced to change that decision through a
tender appeal from Dan—through anything that showed he held her love
precious, and would not lose it after all; but no such sign came. He
only said, in a way that wounded her deeply, “I don’t see the use of
harping on what is past, nor in getting married, if you are not to have
the advantage of being known as a wife.”
It cost Susie a terrible effort to not spurn him and his offer with
contempt, for her mood was rapidly passing from the negative to the
positive; but she was in a peculiar position. Clara and Mrs. Buzzell
expected her to take a certain course, and she could make any sacrifice
rather than disappoint them. She said, therefore, very calmly, “I have
said that it is not for myself that I assent to your marrying me; the
child might not live; and then I should regret that you were obliged to
be known as the husband of Susie Dykes. Unless it lives, this ceremony
will never be made known by my consent.”
“No danger of its not living. That is not the kind that has a weak hold
on life. Well, have it all your own way,” he added, cowardly letting
every responsibility fall upon her.
Susie was sick at heart, and longed to end the meeting. She had heard
enough. She rose, to signify the fact. Dan took his hat, and, as he did
so, said, “There’s no use crying over spilled milk. We will be friends,
at least. Kiss me, Susie.”
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