Fantasy fiction; Utopian fiction; Utopias -- Fiction
“I see very little of the count. He is very busy. One day he is in
Paris, the next in London, and so on; though he is kind enough to write
me very often. Min is in the _bambinat_ all day. She is perfectly happy,
and the whole _bambinat_ does her reverence as a distinguished visitor!
She is learning French as only children can.”
Clara constantly received letters from Susie; long, delightful letters,
full of enthusiasm, and tenderness, and hope for the future; but the
count was silent. He did not even mention her in his letters to the
doctor, and although this pained her, there was a possible meaning in
it, sweeter than all the conventional remembrances in the world. Once
only he wrote: “I have not written to you, dear friend, from a motive
you may regard as very boyish; but I should never attempt to express
anything but the exact truth to one like you: the reason of my silence
is simply, not knowing what to say. Would you believe me so much a
child? I can only answer: you are responsible. You have thus affected
me. When I am in your presence, I can talk of indifferent subjects. I
cannot write of them.
“There is a mystery in my life, or rather in my character—a riddle I am
waiting for you to read. I am tempted to disclose it, and yet dare not;
therefore I sit with the ink drying on my pen.
“I believe in you in all ways. I trust your delicate insight to
understand even this awkward attempt to approach you, as I trust your
generosity to deal patiently with my weakness. You also have been
silent, my friend, and sometimes I am vain enough to ascribe that
silence to a like cause with mine; but I dare not be too bold. There are
some hopes that must not be rashly cultivated; their disappointment
would destroy my power to do the work which no other can do for me. In
two weeks, if the gods are kind to me, I shall stand in your presence.
“Believe me, with sincere devotion,
“PAUL VON FRAUENSTEIN.”
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