Parents and childrenMason, Charlotte M. (Charlotte Maria)
Philosophy
Parents and children
Mason, Charlotte M. (Charlotte Maria)
Child rearing; Education -- Parent participation
“Do you remember when you wooed me in the shady paths of our old
rectory garden, how I tried hard to show you that I was not the loved
and lovely home-daughter you pictured? I told you how I was cross about
this and that; how little things put me out for days, so that I was
under a cloud, and really _couldn’t_ speak to, or care about anybody;
how, not I, but (forgive the word) my plain sister Helen, was the
beloved child of the house, adored by the children, by my parents, by
all the folk of the village, who must in one way or other have dealings
with the parson’s daughters. Do you recollect any of this?”
“Yes, but what of it? I have never for a moment rued my choice, nor
wished that it had fallen on our good Helen, kindest of friends to us
and ours.”
“And you, dear heart, put all I said down to generosity and humility;
every effort I made to show you the truth was put down to the count of
some beautiful virtue, until at last I gave it up; you _would_ only
think the more of me, and think the less kindly of my dear home people,
because, indeed, they didn’t ‘appreciate’ me. How I hated the word. I’m
not sure I was sorry to give up the effort to show you myself as I was.
The fact is, your love made me all it believed me to be, and I thought
the old things had passed away.”
“Well, dear, and wasn’t I right? Have we had a single cloud upon our
married life?”
“Ah, dear man, little you know what the first two years of married
life were to me. If you read your newspaper, I resented it; if you
spent half-an-hour in your smoking den, or an hour with a friend, if
you admired another woman, I resented each and all, kept sulky silence
for days, even for weeks. And you, all the time, thought no evil, but
were sorry for your poor ‘little wife,’ made much of her, and loved her
all the more, the more sullen and resentful she became. She was ‘out
of sorts,’ you said, and planned a little foreign tour, as you are now
doing for Dorothy. I do believe you loved me out of it at last. The
time came when I felt myself hunted down by these sullen rages. I ran
away, took immense walks, read voraciously, but could not help myself
till our first child came; God’s gift, our little Dorothy. Her baby
fingers healed me as not even your love could do. But, oh, George,
don’t you see?”
“My poor Mary! Yes, I see; your healing was bought at the little
child’s expense, and the plague you felt within you was passed on to
her. This, I see, is your idea; but I still believe it is a morbid
fancy, and I still think my little trip will cure both mother and
daughter.”
“You say well, mother and daughter. The proverb should run, not a burnt
child dreads the fire, but a burnt child will soonest catch fire! I
feel that all my old misery will come back upon me if I am to see the
same thing repeated in Dorothy.” George sat musing for a minute or two,
but my fear of him was gone; his face was full of tenderness for both
of us.
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