Courtship -- Fiction; Mate selection -- Fiction; United States -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
"You know you do. If I have done any thing wrong, any thing that
offends you, it was at worst a sin of ignorance, and I sincerely beg
your pardon. It is Christmas time, and you cannot better observe it
than by a general amnesty."
"Will a general amnesty satisfy you, then?" she asked, teasing a tuft
of the withered aftermath with her foot.
Patty understood little her own mood. She desired intensely to be
reconciled to her lover; but she was tormented by a secret feeling,
that, if he loved her as she wished to be loved, his passion would
break down all obstacles. She could endure a lukewarm affection better
from any man in the world than from him. To give a sign of her own
tenderness, to meet his advances half way, would leave her unsatisfied,
even though it resulted in that understanding for which she so ardently
longed. She wished to be seized, to be conquered by a passion so
powerful as to break down all barriers, to sweep away all hinderances.
Hazard's letter, too, had affected her strongly. She had never really
believed her lover guilty of any tangible offence, but with a woman's
inconsistency had secretly required him to prove his purity. Now
that she understood the nature of his relations with Mrs. Smithers,
and found here one more proof of his unselfishness, she felt herself
contemptible for ever allowing a shadow of doubt to cross her mind. Her
feelings were a wild mixture, and instinctively she waited to prove the
strength of her lover's passion and its power over her. She stood there
in the misty light, knowing that Putnam thought her trifling with him,
and angry that he permitted her to do so.
"Is a general amnesty all you desire?" she asked again, as he remained
silent.
"If it is the best you have to give," he said coldly. "Still I may
perhaps be pardoned if I ask why I need the grace of an amnesty at
all. What is my offence?"
"Who accused you of any?" she queried evasively.
"Is it a sin of omission, or of commission?" he persisted.
"Nowadays we seem only to talk in conundrums of great moral import,"
she said. "It doesn't seem to me to amount to much."
Her companion looked at her as might at the sphinx one whom that
monster gave the choice between guessing her riddle, and being
devoured. A sense of irritation struggled with his love. He felt
at once the annoyance of one who is trifled with, and the strong
tenderness of his regard for this slender woman before him. He came a
step nearer to her.
"Does any thing seem to you to amount to much?" he demanded. "I think
sometimes that you are only half human. You draw men on to love you,
and then give only mockery in return."
"If there were only a rock in the middle of Black-Clear Eddy," Patty
returned, with an affectation of the utmost deliberation, "I would
certainly get a harp, and play the Loreley."
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