Paul Rundel: A NovelHarben, Will N. (Will Nathaniel)
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Paul Rundel: A Novel
Harben, Will N. (Will Nathaniel)
Fugitives from justice -- Fiction; Georgia -- Fiction; Ku Klux Klan (19th century) -- Fiction
“She has hardly touched any sort of food since Jennie died,” Mrs.
Mayfield asserted, in a tremulous tone. “She is wasting away. She can't
sleep even under opiates. She cries constantly, and declares she can't
get her mind from it for a moment. We ought not to have allowed her to
see the end, but we could not avoid it. Jennie was conscious almost to
the last minute, though she did not realize she was dying. They thought
it best not to tell her, and she begged Ethel and her parents and me and
the young man she was to marry--begged us not to leave her. She seemed
quite afraid. Then suddenly she had a terrible convulsion. She was
clinging to my daughter's hand when she died. Ethel fainted, and had to
be taken home in a carriage. She--she--Paul, she has lost all faith
in the goodness of God, in an after-life, in everything. She is simply
desperate and defiant. She can't be made to see any sort of justice in
it. She is bitter, very bitter, and hard and resentful. Two kind-hearted
ministers down there tried to talk to her, but she almost laughed in
their faces. Some sweet old ladies--intimate friends of ours--tried to
pacify her, too, but could do nothing. I wish you had been there. You
have comforted me more than any one else ever did. Your faith seems such
a living, active thing, and even while down there under all that sadness
I found myself somehow feeling that your thoughts--your prayers were
with us.”
“Yes, yes,” he nodded, his blood mounting to his face, “that was all
I could do. Prayer is a wonderful force, but unfortunately it seems
without great or immediate effect unless it arises out of faith itself,
and perfect faith is very rare.”
“I understand,” the lady sighed. “I hear Ethel coming down. I wish you
would talk to her. I am sure you can do her good, and something must
be done. No medicine can help her; her trouble is of the mind. It is
natural for persons to lose faith under a shock like this, and in time
get over it; but--but, Paul, I've known people to die of grief, and that
is really what I am afraid of.”
Ethel, as she descended the veranda steps, saw them. She wavered for a
moment, as if undecided which way to go, and then, as if reluctantly,
she came on to them. Paul noted the drawn whiteness of her face and the
dark rings about her despairing eyes. Her whole being seemed to vibrate
from a tense state of nervousness. Her lips were fixed in a piteous
grimace as she gave Paul her hand.
“Mother's told you about it, I am sure,” were her first words.
“Yes,” he nodded, sympathetically, “it is very sad.”
She took a deep, tremulous breath, and her lips were drawn tight as from
inner pain. “Paul,” she said, bitterly, “I didn't know till now that
even an _omnipotent_ God could invent a thing as horrible as all that
was. If--if it would amount to anything I would curse him--actually
curse him.”
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