It seemed to arouse him from some mental absorption in which his
physical entity had been lost. It was five o'clock, and he was John
Bruce. At eleven o'clock--or was it twelve?--last night he had left
Hawkins standing by the door of the traveling pawn-shop, and since
then----
He stared around him. He was somewhere downtown. He did not know where.
He began to walk in an uptown direction.
Something had been born in those hours. Something cataclysmic. What was
it?
“Or him!” The words came again--aloud--without apparent volition.
What did that mean? It had something to do with Hawkins; with what
Hawkins had said, standing there by the traveling pawn-shop. What was it
Hawkins had said? Yes; he remembered: “I'd rather see her dead.”
“Or him!”
With cold judicial precision now the hours unrolled themselves before
him.
“Or him!”
He was going to kill Crang.
The hours of mental strife, of torment through which he had just passed,
were as the memory of some rack upon which his soul had been put to
torture. They came back vividly now, those hours--every minute of them a
living eternity. His soul had shrunk back aghast at first, and called it
murder; but it was not murder, or, if it was, it was imperative. It was
the life of a foul viper--or Claire's. It was the life of an unclean
thing that mocked and desecrated all decency, that flung its sordid
challenge at every law, both human and divine--or the life of a pure,
clean soul made the plaything of this beast, and dragged into a mire
of unutterable abomination to suffocate and strangle in its noxious
surroundings and die.
And that soul was in jeopardy because at this moment he, John Bruce, had
the power of movement in his limbs, the sense of sight, the ability to
stretch out his hand and feel it touch that lamp-post there, and, if
he would, to speak aloud and designate that object for what it was--a
lamp-post. She had bought him these things with her life. Should she
die--and he live?
And he remembered back through those hours since midnight, when his soul
had still faltered before the taking of human life, how it had sought
some other way, some alternative, _any_ alternative. A jail sentence
for Crang. There was enough, more than enough now with the evidence of
Crang's double life, to convict the man for the robbery of that safe.
But Claire had answered that in the long ago: “I will marry him when he
comes out.” Or, then, to get Crang away again like this afternoon--no,
_yesterday_ afternoon. It was _this_ morning, in a few hours, that they
were to be married. There was no time left in which to attempt anything
like that; but, even if there were, he knew now, that it but postponed
the day of reckoning. Claire would wait. Crang would come back.
He was going to kill Crang.
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