John Bruce nodded his head sharply. Yes, that was better! But there was
still something else--that bond. He knew to-night, even if prison
walls and a death penalty were not about to nullify that bond far more
effectively than either he or Larmon ever could, that the one thing
he wanted now, while yet he was a free agent, while yet it was not
arbitrarily his choice, was to cancel that agreement which was so
typical of what his life up to the present time had always stood for;
and in its cancellation, for what little time was left, to have it
typify, instead, a finer manhood. The future, premonitive, grim in its
promise, seemed to hold up before him as in a mirror where no lines were
softened, where only the blunt, brutal truth was reflected, the waste
and worthlessness of the past. He had no wish to evade it, or temporize
with it, or seek to palliate it. He knew only a vain and bitter regret;
knew only the desire now at the end, in so far as he could, to face
death a changed man.
He walked on and on. He was getting into the uptown section now. How
many miles he must have covered since he had left Hawkins, and since
the door of the one-time pawn-shop had closed on that little bare-headed
figure with the loose cloak clutched about her throat--the last sight
he had had of Claire! How many miles? He did not know. It must have been
many, very many. But he felt no weariness. It was strange! It was
as though his vitality and energy flowed into him from some wholly
extraneous source; and as though physically he were non-existent.
He wondered what Larmon would say. Larmon alone had the right to cancel
the bond. That was the way it had been written. Would Larmon refuse? He
hoped not, because he wanted to part with Larmon as a friend. He hoped
not, though in the final analysis, in a practical way, Larmon's refusal
must be so futile a thing. Would Larmon laugh at him, and, not knowing,
call him a fool? He shook his head. He did not know. At least Larmon
would not be surprised. The conversation of last evening----
John Bruce looked up. He was at the entrance to the Bayne-Miloy Hotel.
He entered, nodded mechanically to the night clerk, stepped into the
elevator, and went up to his room. There was his revolver to be got.
Afterward he would go down to Larmon's room. Somehow, even in the face
of that other thing which he was to do, this interview which was to
come with Larmon obsessed him. It seemed to signify some vital line of
demarcation between the old life and the new.
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