Atonement -- Fiction; Clergy -- England -- Fiction; Illegitimate children -- Fiction
But the lantern stood longer still upon a salient fragment of the razed
east end, while the trowel rang, and the mortar flopped, until all lay
smooth and glistening in its light. Then Carlton knelt, and lifted his
handiwork with bursting muscles; and the mortar spattered his waistcoat
as the great stone dropped into place. A wrench, a push, a tap with the
trowel; a finishing touch with its point, a word of thanksgiving before
he rose; and Robert Carlton had laid the first stone of a new church,
and of his own new life.
Next morning he began systematic work, rising at five, lighting his
fire, making his bed, sweeping, dusting, pumping, rinsing, all before
the day's work started after breakfast, with the gentler arts of
scraping and re-pointing, and all in strict obedience to the schedule
which Carlton had drawn up before his arrest. The working day ended, as
then arranged, with a violent assault upon that black disorder which had
been the nave; but this also acquired system as the days closed in;
while the influence of time was not less apparent in the gradual
disappearance of that tendency to morbid reaction which had been
inevitable in the first days of bodily and spiritual strain, of
incessant and excessive hardship, of a solitude consummate and profound.
But here time was assisted by the good sense and the strong will of
Carlton himself, who knew how little virtue there is in mere remorse,
and who struggled against it with all his might. It was a long time,
however, before even he was master of himself in this regard. One day,
in the exaltation of overwork, the high excitement of nervous and of
physical exhaustion, he was actually heard whistling at his walls, and
it was all over the village before he caught himself in the act; but
none seemed to hear how suddenly he stopped at last; none saw the raised
face, the clasped hands, the lips moving in meek apology for an
instant's joy. Nor did any man dream how this one would still mortify
himself, after such a lapse, with deliberate dwelling on the past. There
was but one link, indeed, in all the mournful chain of recent events,
upon which Robert Carlton would never permit his thoughts to
concentrate; that was his successful conduct of his own case before the
magistrates, culminating in his final triumph over Sir Wilton Gleed. He
had made the rule in the hour of his release, and he called in all his
strength of mind to its rigorous observance.
It was now three weeks since he had spoken to a human being, none having
come near him to his knowledge; then one morning the air was full of
whispers, though the yellowing elms hung stagnant in an autumn mist; and
the outcast, looking over the wall which he was scraping, beheld a bevy
of school-children perched on that of the churchyard.
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