Atonement -- Fiction; Clergy -- England -- Fiction; Illegitimate children -- Fiction
This one did not come to Robert Carlton's ears, but he was perhaps the
first to whom the obvious comment had occurred, and its easy
justification did a little damp the glow in which his latest champion
had left him. It were better to have won the allegiance of a better man.
Yet who was he to judge his fellows? He had forfeited the right to
criticise another. Let him then be truly and duly thankful; for with
each waning year he had more and more occasion. Surely the heart of man
was beginning at last to soften towards an erring brother, who repented
very bitterly of his sin, and who was doing faithfully the little that
he could to undo the least of his sin's results. Ah, that he could have
done more! Ah, that by dying he could bring the dead to life!
He was only a man; he could only suffer in his turn. That he had done,
was doing, and was still to do. And he thanked God for it again; so much
of the old spirit still endured. Yet was he none the less thankful for
every token of pardon or of pity from mere men. He knew that many would
justly execrate his name until the end. He knew of one at least who
would never forgive him in this life.
This one came on a moonlight night in the spring of this fourth year;
came limping into the churchyard, leaning on his great stick, and
growling savagely to himself; little suspecting that he had Carlton
caught in the ruins, listening, watching, fascinated, from one of those
ragged interstices with which even his perseverance and even his
ingenuity could scarcely cope. To be exact, it was, or was to be, the
mullioned window in the south transept; and as Musk advanced past this
angle of the building, the clergyman first leant, then crept, over the
sill to watch him.
He stole into the open. Musk had his back turned; his shoulders were
very round. Carlton knew well at what grave the other stood staring, and
his heart stirred heavily within him. Oh, his wickedness! Oh, his sin!
How could there be any forgiveness, in heaven or on earth, for him a
clergyman? The poor old man, so old, so bent! He must speak to him; he
must throw himself at his feet; so bent, so lame! Oh, that that stick
might strike the life out of him then and there!
He was creeping forward; suddenly he stopped. Musk was stooping, moving
his stick to and fro across the grave, with a sweeping movement, as of a
scythe. What was he doing? Carlton remembered--divined--and his blood
ran cold. The snowdrops were out; he had put some on the grave. It had
no stone, no name. It was only the tidiest and the greenest mound in all
the churchyard. He saw to that. And yet his flowers desecrated it; must
be swept to the winds . . .
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