Atonement -- Fiction; Clergy -- England -- Fiction; Illegitimate children -- Fiction
The thought afflicted her with a sense of personal hardness and cruelty;
there was this lonely man, doing the work of ten, not spasmodically, but
day after day, and year after year, still unaided and unforgiven by the
very people in whose midst and for whose benefit those prodigies of
labour were being performed. Gwynneth knew now that there had been some
mysterious wickedness before the burning of the church. It was all she
cared to know. What crime could warrant such hardness of heart in the
face of such devotion, skill, patience, consummate endurance, and
invincible determination? These were heroic qualities, no matter what
vileness lay beneath or behind them; and the generous capacity for
hero-worship was very strong in Gwynneth. She would have honoured this
man for his splendid pertinacity, and have wiped all else from the
slate. That his own parishioners continued to dishonour him, and that
she perforce had to do as they did, made her indignant with them and
dissatisfied with herself. So far as Gwynneth was honestly aware, this
feeling was a purely impersonal one. It would have been excited by any
other being who had achieved the like and been thus rewarded. It is
noteworthy, however, that Gwynneth found it necessary to explain the
position to herself.
It was strange, too, how her life had impinged upon his, strange because
the points of contact had in each case left a disproportionate
impression upon her mind. She often thought of them. There was once in
the very beginning, when she had actually stopped him in the village to
ask the name of the poem from which he had quoted on Sunday. Gwynneth
had never told a soul about this, she was so ashamed of her unmaidenly
impulse; but she still remembered the look of pleasure that had flashed
through his pain, and the kind sad voice which both answered her
question and thanked her for asking it. That must have been only a day
or two before the fire; the same summer there was the silent scene
between them in the drawing-room, when she longed to shake hands with
him, to show him her sympathy, but did not dare. Then came the finding
of Georgie in the stonemason's shed, only the spring before last; but
Gwynneth found that she had been gauche as usual even then, that she had
never risen to any of these occasions, but that her one small attempt to
express her sympathy had been nothing less than a piece of tactless
presumption on her part. And yet she felt so much!
Well, it was something that Musk had opened his doors to him, if only
under pressure of a harrowing occasion; even then it was much, very
much, in the prime infidel of the parish. It was a beginning, an
example; it might show others the way. Gwynneth presently discovered
that it had.
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